Jessi Smiles Instagram – 4 months. 🎄❤️ This month has been by far the hardest of 2017. I can’t get into it now because it’s still too much and it probably will be for a while – but my family lost someone we loved so much a few days ago. Saying that doesn’t even do it justice. We’ve lost a lot of people we loved this year, actually. The level of suffering has been overwhelming at times. Somehow though, even in tragedy, Noah has managed to make us laugh and come together in a moment where we desperately needed to…and he doesn’t even know it. I’ll have to thank him one day. The circle of life can be very painful but when I look into his eyes, I see how beautiful it can be, too. *sigh* life, man. Life. ❤️