Indiana Black Instagram – Im going to be blunt: I’ve not been doing well mentally.
I share it more as an update rather than a “pity party” kick off; I’ve been quite closed down concerning the last few weeks.
I came into this new year looking to get content moving but have put it on the wayside as I focus more on me and my mental wellbeing. But I see a lot of people asking, about things like TOAD and streaming – and it’s a risky situation because by revealing how unstable I feel I may risk/lose prospects of work who see it as a warning sign, but I also do want to jsut answer the question of why I’ve shit down a lot of surrounding channels.
Depression. In the combination of work stressors and my personal life in a long distance relationship, I lost access to my primary support network in my fiance. Which isn’t healthy anyway to stack so much pressure on her, especially when she’s trying to achieve her own dreams.
So I’m just lost right now. Feel like my days are planned around just surviving the hours and getting to the next rather than soaking in the moment to enjoy anything. It’s uncomfortable to be living for an eventuality rather than the present.
Anyway, I’m in therapy now and hopefully that means there will be a light at the end of the tunnel – that this pain is just temporary. But I’m told that things will get worse before they get better. “Cleaning the wounds” for healing and all that.
So I’ll be stepping back from social media and content for the immediate timeline. | Posted on 27/Feb/2020 20:10:25
