Ishaara Nair Instagram – A good bye note to 2021 from a tired mommy đ€Łđ What an incredible year! When I say incredible it doesnât mean that it was all rainbows. Yes I had my rainbow baby đđ€Ș And that was the highlight of this year. It was definitely an year of emotional highest highs and lowest lows ever. So letâs see how it went.
When the year started, I had just entered by third trimester of pregnancy. I had to go on a trip to the U.S. and my anxiety levels hit a 100 on how am I going to travel, What if something goes wrong while on airplane, what if something happens on the road trip etc. And may I say my whole year from that point on sunk in anxiety. I had my delivery and itâs needless to say how mom anxiety works. I definitely reached a point where I couldnât function normally and my brain just wouldnât stop. My thoughts were all negative. Most of the time I was crying. But I soon realized things are not right with my mental state and I did not want to be around my baby with that kind of energy. I remember putting up some story about my anxiety on Instagram while I was in a very vulnerable state of mind and couple of good people messaged me sharing their stories and coping mechanisms. I am a total stranger to them. I donât know why they thought of helping me. But their words at that point in time really meant a lot to me. Wherever you are, god bless you. I donât know why you spoke to me. It meant everything. I am so grateful to you guys. Meanwhile I also took therapy and talking to my therapist helped me a lot. She just kept reassuring me that whatever emotions I went through wasnât wrong because I was going through emotions of extreme guilt trips for nothing and I hated myself for everything including my mom body. I couldnât even be on a video call with my family because I was anxious that they might judge my weight gain, dark circles and my exhausted mommy look. It was so difficult. Severe body image issues đđ. But looking back, it was an excellent time of learning. I learnt a lot along the way. Some skills, some lessons. Yes, most of it through mental and physical pain. But it was all worth it. Rest of the caption in comments down below âŹïž Dubai Marina | Posted on 28/Dec/2021 18:15:35