Julie McNiven Instagram – Brother, my grief for you. Eight years in. It’s a never ending thread woven through me. It twists and turns. It brightens and darkens. Always there.
Brother, my grief for you. As the years go by it doesn’t get smaller, it gets longer. Collecting moments. More you’ve missed. The big. The boring.
Brother, my grief for you. It has a life of it’s own. It ebbs and flows as it pleases. I don’t live in it’s sadness. It’s sadness lives within me.
Brother, my grief for you. It surfaces when I can’t sleep. It creeps up when my boys are cuddling and I think how they will never get one of your catapult hugs. It erupts in me when I have a moment to myself and I remember that you are no longer here. I burst a cry. I steady my breath. I move through it.
I miss you brother. I miss our past. I miss our absent present. I miss the future we will never have. I love you.
❤️ | Posted on 07/Dec/2021 23:58:15
