This is the last selfie i took, before testing positive for Covid. Its been 14 days since i fell sick .. more than the sickness itself.. these 14 days was gruelling mentally.
The first 3 days were awful. The fever,body pain and tiredness was something i have experienced never before.
But slowly i got better. My health was getting better and better every single day. But my mental health wasnt that great.. as every single day passed, i was becoming more and more sad, felt bored and had nothing to do.
Though it was the time for me to rest, all i could think about was the fact that i had to be like this for a fortnight.
Tried painting, tried watching movies, series, tried everything possible to distract myself.. but nothing worked.
I was at my loneliest self, not being able to see, talk or hug anyone esply my baby.
I became aware that i was losing it.
So much frustration that i had no one to actually talk to .. My husband was busy taking care of cooking, handling work at home, and taking care of R and also work outside, that he hardly had time or energy to talk to me.
Though i shud have been extremely grateful and loving for whatever he was doing..my frustration was just building up.
I kept complaining of having no time for myself before.. now i had all the time in the world but i cudnt enjoy one bit of it. Such is life!
My heart was outside while I was trapped inside.
I am not able to put in words, how i felt.
Beginning of the year , all the work plans I had came to a standstill, Already strained relationships became even more strained, cudnt reach out to ppl to tell them how i feel, longest time without my baby..
With just couple of clothes to wear, no energy to even make myself look decent enough for myself.. no mood to keep myself active, I have been at my worst for the last 14 days.
It will take days for me to rebuild myself , to look and feel confident.
I was dreading this and dodged Covid for 2 years being extremely careful and safe, but it finally got me, catching me at my worst.
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இதயம் கனிந்த தைத்திருநாள் வாழ்த்துக்கள்…நலமும் வளமும் பொங்கட்டும்! 🌾❤️
We celebrate pongal today!
P.s : Amma nee azhaga irukka’nu en paiyan Rudraksh sollum bodhu @moulistic asaiya edutha photo❤️
My day is made ❤️❤️
P. S : thought of not posting this earlier as i actually wanted to remain calm and go through the isolation on my own,but i really had to tell ppl not to depend ONLY on rapid tests which shows negative, despite having covid symptoms. What if i hadnt gone for the RTPCR?! i feel too drained even after medications.This is not something easy to deal with as ppl believe.The severity might have gone down , but still it has a great impact on ur mental and physical health. STAY SAFE 🙏 Love and hugs to All.
Glimpse of pongal 2022🌞🌾@moulistic #kissmootales ❤️
Me : Under Home quarantine, stuck in a room, feeling sick and blah..
Also Me : in parallel universe, being a super sexy avatar😂😂
Colourless doesnt always mean lifeless! Sometimes the absence of colour gives u more clarity and focus!
MUAH : @honeylang_makeup_artist
Photography : @sathish_photography49
Outfit : @unikpondicherry
Late to the trend! But here is our version of #tumtum 😂❤️
With these beauties @paddy_695 @oasiaugustina94
Shot by @magic_mystery_madness
Wearing @magicbyjeeni
Shot at @redboxphotography
Thank u @magicbyjeeni for sending this to lighten up my mood during my quarantine period 😂 @imshivashish @paddy_695 @oasiaugustina94
Once upon a rainy day! Throwback to happy times with my boy! SOUND ON! ❤️
