Jada Pinkett Smith Instagram – The Cheslie Kryst episode has been the most personal table for me yet. Listening to @aprils_hr, Cheslie’s mother read the note Cheslie left to her before jumping to her death, brought me right back into my experiences of such overwhelming, unbearable despair that I was consumed by everyday. My past despair had gotten me to a point of me trying to plan an accident that I could have so that my children would not know that my death was by suicide. I thank the Great Divine for them, because although I may not have been enough to stay alive for myself at that time, my children were and that bought my spirit time until the Great Supreme could make a way to enter my heart and do the rest. 5 months into my 40th year I experienced a deep spiritual and psychological healing through a specific therapy that saved my life. This was just the beginning. And it has been a deep 10 year journey of healing. Everyday I HAVE TO focus on my healing and it has not been without pitfalls and relapses … but I’M HERE. It’s one day at a time as I grow love and patience for myself. And the beauty of the Great Divine is that for anyone who is suffering … the Great Divine has a way out for you that is specifically designed for you. That’s how much you are loved. In my despair now, I’ve learned to cry for help instead of for the sake of the pain. I’ve had to learn how to ask for help when I need it but I’ve also had to learn to surrender to a power greater then myself and cultivate deep faith. I’m asking you to trust. I’m asking you to have faith and to find a reason to hang on. There is help, you just can’t see it yet but I’m living proof that that is true! Even as I sit in the pressures of this fire of deep misunderstanding around my character created by half truths that I have allowed within my story and stories told about me … I’M GRATEFUL TO BE ALIVE❣️ I’m grateful for what the Great Divine is showing me and teaching me. I’m grateful for every piece of my journey and the strength giving love of The Great One above. If no one has told you “I love you” today … I LOVE YOU and so does the Great Supreme. I promise ♥️