Jordi Vilasuso

Jordi Vilasuso Instagram – Thank you for your strength and your vulnerability my love. Whatever this means to our story…God only knows and I pray your testimony will bring peace to someone who has faced this as well🙏❤️🙏❤️⁣
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It’s been a week 1 day since I heard ‘Well, I see the baby. But I’m not seeing the heartbeat.. ohh… wait, there’s a flicker.. oh there’s another flicker.. yeah, no.. that’s not enough.. ‘ 💔💔💔⁣⁣
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That’s not enough. My baby. Our baby. The baby my girls had crossed their fingers for at lunch a few weeks ago, completely unaware that just a few days before I had visited my doctor for what I thought was a precautionary cervix check and a chance to see the heartbeat of our third little one. But instead I was given the ‘50/50’ odds that my dates were ‘off’ and everything was fine OR that it was an ‘abnormal pregnancy that would eventually end in miscarriage.’ Four long, emotionally and physically painful weeks later, I clearly got the latter. ⁣⁣
And I never anticipated that it would hurt this much. ⁣⁣
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I know that miscarriage has a stigma surrounding it in a sense, with so many women who have experienced it being hesitant to talk about it. And now, being one of those ‘one in four women’ that I never thought I’d be.. I understand it even more. It’s a different kind of hurt than I’ve ever experienced. It is so personal. It – and the little heartbeat that was lost- almost feels too precious and sacred to be talked about. Just for starters. ⁣⁣
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I was hoping (even when things went super south) that I was documenting what would be a ‘success story.’ That ‘it was a hard road but we kept the faith and it all worked out and here’s a cute maternity picture of the girls holding my belly to announce their new little baby brother or sister!’ (I’m aware that’s not a proper sentence but definitely accurate in terms of how my mind is processing things these days. 🙈) ⁣⁣
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Instead- I’m here trying to figure out what this story is. And what the point of sharing it is because it just seems.. sad. But I know that God doesn’t work like that.. I know that there is absolute purpose in every season.. that (cont’d in comments) | Posted on 20/Aug/2020 04:08:32