Leigh Holland-Keen Instagram – Life… what a crazy thing huh?!
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4 years ago, I was the first woman to be awarded a full lift of the famous dinnie stones – making history, an amazing day filled with the best emotions.
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Since then – it’s been a battle – pregnancy, marriage breakdown, single motherhood, unemployment, death of my mum, family dramas, legal dramas, financial dramas. It’s been a tough slog at times but I’ve managed to grind through the rough parts and make a stable life for Mackenzie and I.
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But, my biggest battle is right now, I almost lost my life last week after my heart stopped. I’m currently fighting Sarcoma and have had a 1kg cancerous mass removed aswell as part of my bowel with a few complications along the way.THIS has been a major challenge for me because my life is in other people’s hands, I struggle not being independent, I struggle ALOT.
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I’ve had a couple of really tough days in hospital and today is one of them – I’m in a shit tonne of pain and I got to see my wound for the first time – as superficial as it sounds – it’s decreased my self esteem big time – it’s massive and ugly looking. I know with time it will settle and I should “feel lucky” that we caught this in time and I still have my life but it doesn’t take away the emotions that I feel today.
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I’m glad I’ve developed resilience over the years of hardship, I feel its helping me get through this right now. I miss my daughter beyond words but each day that goes by is another day closer to being back home with her. I could write some bullshit about only looking at the positives 100% of the time and being mentally rocksolid but that would be a lie – to me showing strength is showing EVERYTHING, showing the ability to feel all emotions and admitting that sometimes things are just a big giant bag of dicks.
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I’m here, I’m fighting and I’m just having a shit day, which is ok.
#fuckcancer
#igotthis #keepfightingthegoodfight | Posted on 09/Aug/2022 05:24:34
