Anna Hutchison

Anna Hutchison Instagram – They said it would get easier. Why did they fill me with false hope? It just gets more permanent. The memories have started to get fuzzy. I go to message you & I come across our last chat. Time zones cutting it in half. I long for the day we can finish it & start a whole new one.
Should I cry louder? Love harder? The purest love I’ve known has resulted in my two greatest blessings. I wish every day they could meet you. I teach them everything you taught me. They would adore you. I say your name as much as I can. They know how much I love you.
The tears keep falling. Endlessly. My heart still feels so broken. The weight on my chest making it hard to breathe.
I hope that’s you that I feel when a wave of excitement comes over me. When the hairs on my arm stand up. When I’m running. When I’m alone. When I’m driving. When I’m in a crowded room & a song comes on that you loved.
I wish I had more time with you. I wish I could ask your advice on things that are happening right now. I wish I could tell you what I’m aiming for. No one’s support or encouragement came with such a heartfelt smile. I wish I could show you everything that’s happened since we last hugged goodbye.
Oh how I wish I could hug you again. Sit with you. Hold your hand.
Hear you laugh again.
I didn’t get the chance to tell you how much I love you. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! How much your support & encouragement meant. How you were my most wise confidant. You never judged me. To have unconditional acceptance allowed me to shine.
Am I holding on to this grief because it helps me hold on to you?
My memories of you are so love filled. Laughter. Good times.
Maybe that’s how I’ll try to deal with missing you. Remembering all those amazing times. There were so many. Maybe I’ll try missing you by living how you lived. To the fullest. Open hearted. Glass over flowing. Flowers in every room. Color on every wall. Thank you for showing me a love that I want to spread. I can’t wait to see you again. I’m so excited. But until then, instead of hiding, avoiding, cancelling plans, stalling like I have, I’m hooning off! I’m going to make the best memories. The best life. Give us something to chat about next time I see you❤️ | Posted on 08/May/2023 07:14:27