Megha Gupta Instagram – I miss you every day papa. No matter how deep I dive into the medicine, I’m still at a massive loss not having you with me in the physical. We lost you today, I don’t know if it’s been 5 or 6 or 7 years. All of that time seems like such a blur still. Yes I know, he’s right here, he’s in a better place bla bla.. but today I’m in no mood to hear any of it and find comfort in it. Today I miss him more than ever. I went to sleep crying, woke up in the middle of the night crying, and cried as soon as I woke up this morning. I still can’t really go through our pictures together, I see these everyday and now they don’t make me cry on the daily, so I take it. I’d rather have been with mummy and Nes in Nasik but this fracture is limiting my movement for now. I’m lucky to have a Boulder for a mother and she more than makes up as a mother and father, but some days I don’t want to ask too much of her too. I’m also very lucky to have the best set of friends all over the globe who understand me for what i am and support me relentlessly. I know who they are, they know who they are and they are gold. This little glass thing I hold on so dearly to. In 1993 papa was invited to be on Her Majestys’ Yacht Britannia and I was in class 3rd. He brought this back and I have seen this as a child. I would feel so proud and intrigued with the whole thing. Now this is papa to me. Keep the phone aside, go sit with your parents, listen to them, play with their hair while you do, hold their hands, zone out from what they are saying for the sheer joy of just having them in front of you and that you get to see them, hold them and hear them. And if you have this, you are more lucky than you know. Here’s to acknowledging the shittiest day of my life for the rest of it on this planet.