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Shungudzo Instagram – I cried a new kind of tears today,
For neither joy nor sorrow.
I know sad tears —
They choke and cough
And are not soft to swallow.
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And happy tears
Are warm and clear
In relief or in bliss.
A lesson learned;
A bridge unburned;
The sunlight in soft mist.
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I know their ways,
And yet, today,
My tears were not like this.
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I cried a new kind of tears today —
Not shallow and not deep.
They were not hope,
They were not shame,
I was not strong
Or weak.
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I wept,
Neither for something more
Nor some heartfelt goodbye.
I did not feel
Myself at war —
I was not low or high.
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I know those tears,
And yet, today,
Those weren’t the tears I cried.
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I cried a new kind of tears today.
I made a brand new sound.
A baby missing mother
And a god laughing out loud.
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I held me on the carpet —
(em)braced to feel —
I did not run.
I asked my tears
To name themselves —
To tell me why they’d come.
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And then the words,
“Wow, I feel everything,”
Cut through my tongue.
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Wow, I feel everything!
The joy,
The pain,
The all,
The none.
Wow, I feel everything!
The mad,
The sane,
The rain,
The sun.
Wow, I feel everything!
The heart,
The mind,
The freak,
The soul.
Wow, I feel everything!
The ugly
And the beautiful.
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I cried a new kind of tears today:
The tears of being whole. | Posted on 11/May/2023 21:25:24