Dina Deleasa Instagram – When I woke up in hospital one of the first things I did was thank God that I was awake. Sounds a bit dramatic, I know but it is true. There are certain things you go through in life that will bring that thought to you plain and simple. I knew the hospital would be hard based on past experiences. So each time I felt crushed, I went back to that thought. These moments after are small. A simple collection of reasons to smile during a time where it is perfectly fine to not.
I understand that the choice is mine. I can focus on being grateful for these small scenes and victories that play out in front of me. Or I can spend my time recounting and replaying my worries, fears, or disappointments. Am I going to have these moments? Are some days going to be harder than others, sure. But does that have to be all I see?
Should I ruminate on another poor hospital stay. Forget not getting a room to recover, had to beg for a bed? Should I spend every moment fearing my results? I could sit in frustration over being in pain or bedridden. For missing out on life moments, falling short in parenting, and having to rely on others.
Or-I could lay all this at his feet. I could cry to him, pray honestly, and open my Bible to a God ordained passage. Turn on a podcast that says everything my heart needed to hear. Or someone can text me encouragement at the perfect time. I can get a call for a zoom segment the first day I was slightly up for anything, reminding me I am not done. I can be filled with thankfulness for all the meals, flowers, messages, I could hear him whisper, while winter is coming it will be your spring, and rest in that promise.
All these things can happen. Well, they have for me the past couple of days. I am so grateful for everyone who has stepped in and sent their love 💕Where I stop and take in, is my choice. It is not false positivity but a small example of how he is walking me through the valley. I may have to be here for the time being, but it does not have to be that dark, it doesn’t have to be that deep. I can keep moving even if I am resting.
“But certainly God has heard me; He has given heed to the voice of my prayer.” Psalm 66:19 | Posted on 01/Nov/2023 23:23:29
