Jordan Casteel Instagram – The horror’s and atrocities that can be committed by fellow humans is baffling. At a time of tremendous loss and suffering, my mother reminded me “it takes immense bravery to consider bringing life into this world.”
I answered that I had to believe that young people have always been at the center of movement and change — and that alone is very much worth the investment in young life.
Here’s the thing, when I was newly diagnosed with Lupus at 18 I was told I could never and should never have kids. My body would undoubted betray me and I should wipe the thought from my brain. So I did. For 15 years I did.
I now know a broad statement of that nature is incorrect — it’s incredibly nuanced — as most things in life are.
Meeting my partner opened me up to consider the whole spectrum of options more freely — placing us on a path towards surrogacy. That was almost 3 years ago — and despite every attempt to trust the systems in place and move through the process, we have been met with fits and starts that at times has broken my heart in ways I never thought possible.
This is not to say I am without hope, I know we will find ourselves exactly where we are meant to be when the time is right. But boy, figuring this out on our own has been one of the hardest parts. There is so much I wish I had known. So much I wish I had asked.
Being vulnerable on this platform is not something I lean into — it can feel so far from real human connection. But I do think I’d like to share more about this journey here — in hopes that connections can be made and wisdom shared. | Posted on 17/Oct/2023 06:10:57
