Josh Brolin Instagram – Waking up to the sounds of my sleeping family in the foreground as I look out to a pond shrouded in a maritime mist through the window of a house build in the mid-1800’s. WTF? The love that comes with noticing how lucky I am to even be breathing, not to mention seeinghearingfeelingtouchingtasting it all in little slurps and gargantuan mouthfuls. Real shiplap facia. The angles of a special home. Sobriety throughout all this and that that sobriety has brought me closer to who I was intended to be in the first place. Knowing that I have aspects of myself I have to work on: letting some of the fight go. Fish markets. Being given soft serve by hard, Massachusetts women. Bookshelves full of random books. Flying beautifully yesterday. Beautiful women in all shapes, ages, and sizes. Living life in a way I really enjoy living it. Keeping focused on what brings great smiles and moves me. Not being lazy. How much I learn from my children. That I stay grounded and feel that cold soil. This morning, moved. Antiques. Having survived so far. Going to sleep last night spooning my four year old and feeling her heartbeat in my palm. This time. It all being one big long prayer and thanks.