Dina Deleasa Instagram – Years ago when Siena came along we had a very unexpected situation. Two months early, emergency c-section, blood transfusions, just a lot of scary stuff. Then a couple of years of walking through postpartum depression, and PTSD. However, God walked with me the whole way, from the hospital bed to the NICU, through the depression, and after a couple of years coming out the other side so to speak.
Recently, I had decided to part with my diaper bag that was tucked away in a closet. As I emptied the bag of the cheddar bunnies crushed in the bottom, bibs, and diaper cream, a couple of Bible verses fell out of the bag. I carried them with me back and forth from the hospital.
Today I took those verses with me as I started what I hope is the final piece to my thyroid cancer treatment. To be honest, the part I dreaded the most, even more than the surgeries.I wrestle with what to say, because I know there are some that have just as much struggle. However, it doesn’t take away the validity of my current feelings. It seems I reserve everything I have for my family. I am really going to have to exercise an even deeper surrender. I truly cannot control the outcome, I can only do so much to worry and guard against the effects of the treatment on myself or others, which seems to be the piece that I struggle with the most. I can’t foresee what I will hear or my scans will show. But that is the difference, the difference that I hope helps illustrate faith in Jesus to others. I recognize the need to now be carried. I see where my capacity ends. But that is where he takes over. I see the necessity in true surrender. What a wonderful thing to know there is someone beyond me holding me, interceding for me, and working where I cannot.
Who knew the verses that fell out of the diaper bag would comfort me today? He did. Why wouldn’t I expect him to deliver me once again, just as he has before. He has continually found ways to remind me and encourage me to finish strong. | Posted on 16/Jan/2024 03:25:01
