Katie Carpenter Instagram – I’m not going to lie to you, I didn’t feel a strong connection with my baby when she was first born. My first thoughts were, “oh thank God that’s over.” And, “well at least she’s cute.”
I think they say fathers take time to connect with their babies. After all, I carried and grew her for 9 months. I felt her kicks and wiggles. But.. to me, she was still a stranger.
I remember telling Kevin about a month after she was born that, ‘I thought I loved her.. but I still loved him more.’
He said he loved the baby more 😂
I was tired. And as simple as I naively assumed breastfeeding was, it’s not always the case. It can be physically and emotionally draining, and a lot of pressure to be the only food source and sometimes comfort for this little innocent being.
I began thinking something may be wrong with me.
But then she smiled.
Suddenly she seemed like a PERSON.
My love for her has grown. Every time she does something new, I’m so proud, so entranced that we managed to create such a perfect baby.
All to say: I know people love to show the perfect moments, and not the tough ones.
This is tough. It’s also beautiful. And life is both. | Posted on 01/Feb/2024 19:56:09
