Katie Carpenter Instagram – 4 months. That’s how long it’s taken for me to feel like I can start putting myself back together.
To think about my own body instead of only my daughters.
I mourn the sight of the extra chin I didn’t used to have. The half a closet full of clothes that don’t fit. I’ve lived in athleisure the past few months. Sometimes I still wear my maternity leggings and pants (like now).
People said it would be hard. That was true. People said “breastfeeding helps.” That was a lie. At least for me.
I don’t pluck my eyebrows. I forget to whiten my teeth. And every time I open my phone or turn on the TV, I’m reminded of the sets I used to act on, and the beautiful people who are on screen. It feels so foreign.
I used to have time. Now, the days go by so fast and before I know it, we’re putting the baby to bed and I better go to bed too because who knows what kind of night I’ll have and if I don’t get a few hours of sleep, I’ll be exhausted and useless tomorrow, and then the cycle continues.
I’m sorry to the mamas who felt this too. I didn’t know. How heartbreaking it can be to love your baby and your new life but mourn the old you. To focus on your little one out of love and joy but also because it’s too upsetting to focus on yourself.
I know I’ll rebuild my body and confidence. It’ll take time.
I’m honored I was able to carry and birth and now raise this baby.
But that doesn’t mean it isn’t hard.
Just feeling really low today. #pp #postpartumjourney #newmom #postpartum #fourthtrimester | Posted on 26/Feb/2024 01:29:28
