Susie Abromeit Instagram – This was me the day my mom died unexpectedly. You can’t tell, but I was crying nonstop all day. Off and on every hour. Cracked wide open. No place left to hide. In all my glory. Wearing no makeup and in sweatpants. My best friend @onthearc_rdr took this photo of me. She dropped everything and flew to nyc to see me with just the sweater on her back. It also happened to be the birthday of her two year old. I’m forever grateful for her.
Soho house may have been the absolute wrong decision to go to grab dinner the day my mom dropped dead, as the loud music was blaring in the background, but was the only place I felt familiar with at the time. The loud cacophony of people chattering and every single sound felt like nails on a chalkboard. Lights felt like sensory overload, as if I was a five year old again, overwhelmed by every single stimuli. My brain’s inability to grasp everything all at once; the sounds, the sights, the smells, the sensations, the intense excruciating feeling of loss and shock to my body.
My body was at its full capacity with the pain of losing her, on top of the physical manifestation of shock waves coursing through my body, zapping me every few minutes, reminding me of my literal shock of her sudden death. And yet knowing my mom would want me to be doing something fabulous with my best friend “because ya know life is short.”
As my mom would probably say if she were here in a hilarious yet flippant tone, “Grief Looks good on you.” And yet it does somehow in that moment. You’re raw. So open. And I felt so loved by all the people in my life.
Christie and I then birthed a short film about that very concept. That despite through all the pain and suffering and losing someone that you love so much, where it feels like your heart has been ripped out, the expansion nature of grief that breaks you wide open, also makes you better at the same time. And with your best friends by your side, helping you move through your grief while contemplating what is life, death, meaning, and the finite and infinite nature of time. Can’t wait to share it and it is an honest, raw, homage to my mom, to the fabulous one that was @ly.nne867 ❤️🎈🫶🏻🥹😢🥲 | Posted on 15/Mar/2024 02:31:43
