Evanna Lynch Instagram – My BFF keeping me honest with my writing days… ✍️
‘How is the writing going?’ you ask. Hmmmm! I’m finding the transition from writing non-fiction to fiction c h a l l e n g i n g. Some days, it feels dizzylingly fun to decide all the rules of a story. But other days I am overcome by the absolute absurdity of writing fiction, the ludicrous pursuit of a career of making EVERYTHING up. After years of being handed scripts and learning to interpret them, this process feels unsettling and hideously self indulgent. I wonder a lot about full-time novelists. What quality have they cultivated in themselves to commit themselves wholeheartedly to an imaginary realm?? Are they free spirited rebels who refuse to adhere to the limits of reality, or autocratic megalomaniacs who have to control every detail of their surroundings in order to be happy? I admire them…. but (I say this with the deepest respect) what nutters. 🙃
The more I work on my book, the more real it becomes and the more excited I feel about it. But there are so many days where I hit walls and find myself questioning ‘what is this SHIT?! What is the point? Wait, hang on, why am I here again?’ It would be nice to learn to write without finding myself in this deep dark hole so often! I’m still waiting for that moment where I’m so into the story that the drive to write overpowers all the negative thoughts, and where I am writing furiously every day. I know that’s what it will take. Less thinking, more writing. 📖
Anyway, I will get there. I am stubborn and optimistic. And I always remember a moment several years ago on stage when I’d got a bit bored of a play I was working on. There was a line that just didn’t make sense to me, I could never make it feel truthful. And always speaking that line, I dropped out of the play, thinking about the writer, hundreds of miles away, already several projects on while I was stuck in a daily loop trying to make sense of that stupid line. I felt so envious of the writer moving from story to story and not looking back. So however much I gripe about writing, that itch to do it endures. Soooo, back to it… 📃 | Posted on 19/Mar/2024 21:18:55
