Babil Khan Instagram – I’m rich but I’m grounded
I’m famous but I’m yours
And even when the desire for you leaves me crippled on the floor,
I still keep wishing you keep knocking on my door.
I’m fighting urges to see if you’re looking at me,
I deracinated all that I am into a soliloquy,
Rivers within me, roaring in pure lividity,
So I hope when my voice comes reaching out for you, it resonates with your divinity.
And I sleep, dream, die for a little while,
For you, then it’s over.
The curtains close, I get closer.
Now I’m looking for you again, in someone else
But I cant ever love you, until I learn to love myself
You maculate me in the fabric of time before we rendezvous.
So dear darling teach me to love my life, tenderly whisper a clue.
You echoed,
“Let not the idea of you in the opinions of others become your mirror, for only the still moana of your intuition can reveal the truth.”
I break my rhythm, and you appear,
before you transmute into fear.
Fears I grip on to in the inhalation of my breath. I’m afraid of asking for help.
I do not know if it is I that needs you or it is you that needs yourself.
Who am I? I don’t know. Yet I care so much of what you think of me.
Sometimes I romanticise our times, the nights and the glory.
Can’t live with you, can’t live without you,
When I’m gone remember our story.
#ajourneytowardsnotgivingafuck | Posted on 17/Apr/2024 16:46:01
