Ali Bastian

Ali Bastian Instagram – And now… the back story. Saying good bye to my London flat was very emotional, I’ve lived there for about 18 years. I rented it first and then bought it a few years later. It was the most secure I had ever felt… I moved around a lot as a child and for many reasons often felt very unsettled. This flat was my life raft through highs and lows of my career, through the madness of covid, it’s where my babies came home from the hospital, took their first steps.. all the magical mess of life… The good, the bad… the hilarious and then the heartbreak. I never thought I would want to leave but life had other plans.
I had a very difficult second birth and postpartum period with my second and in the end my little fam went to Ireland for a circuit breaker last year as my body just wasn’t healing. Two weeks after being in Ireland my c-section finally closed up, I was about 7 months pp by then. My nervous system finally had the break it so desperately needed – I was certainly suffering a major burn out at that point and London life was just too much on top of everything else. When we came back to London there were more turbulent times to come and some tremendous losses that brought me to my knees. Too raw to go in to. Somehow I put one foot in front of the other for my husband and babies. The job of ‘performer and actor’ that I had done professionally since childhood has felt almost impossible to show up in, too vulnerable, too exposing… I never imagined the career that I have loved, the thing that was my escape from a challenging childhood would feel so difficult. That showing up publicly in my own skin could feel so out of reach. Performing – a survival strategy devised in childhood, no longer working. What to do? We needed to change something, my husband has been working every minute of the day trying to keep us going and to hold me and our girls through all this. A little seed of hope had been planted last summer and a daydream, that turned into nightly discussions… could we do it? Should we do it? Could we make it work? Slowly a plan was hatched and here we are now sitting in our little house, overlooking the ocean on the West Coast of Ireland… cont. | Posted on 12/May/2024 01:34:52