Erin Lee Carr

Erin Lee Carr Instagram – my life is a bit unrecognizable to me right now. and i mean that in the best of ways. ever since i was a kid i walked on the sunny side of the street and i find myself literally and figuratively on the sunny side most days. like for everyone who is reading this, turning into who i am today has been difficult. i was drunk and high on the day of my fathers funeral. i’d wake up some mornings with hangovers so bad id need to drink a beer secretly to keep my skull from buzzing too hard. i worked so hard to get sober and a year and a half into it i was diagnosed with an extremely rare lung disorder caused by some sort of exposure to chemicals i never saw. i was in and out of the hospitals for years, all while trying to manage an extremely ambitious career. i found a sweet prince who wanted to take care of me and make me feel safe and we rode out the pandemic together. when covid was done and both he and i and our families were still alive (not the case for all folks) i was relived but desperate to get back to the world but as a result (and many other things) we lost each other. i was single at 34 and i saw my life begin to open up in ways that only could be considered some sort of divine intervention (not god but something with the universe). i was able to move towards scripted with folks i had admired for years. ive been given so many opportunities to work on stories and documentaries i care deeply about. my finances went from stable to earning real income as a “freelance documentary film director,” something pretty unheard of, even now. my lungs did not worsen like the doctors predicted but they stayed the same and even improved just a little which is everything. so as i look at these pictures i cherish being in the sun, just for this moment as we never know when the shade will hit and that is okay, its life after all. may the sun shine on you and yours today.
🎞️: @transnormativity
hair and makeup: @danyellabee
shot by A in my backyard on april 15th, 2024. | Posted on 27/Apr/2024 03:10:24