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I am the doing.
I think a lot, I am often in my own world, too many concussions? ADHD? Am I selfish and /or jugmental? Do people think I am aloof. If what they say is real. I don’t want to be that way.
Someone I deem as wise once said to me “we are who people think we are”.
Is this true? Maybe it indeed is. And if so we cannot please everyone to help us God. Does God know? This I don’t know either. But I try to know.
I carry my enemy. And I struggle. I am no superhero- this is ridiculous,, I have no superpowers. Only luck and very odd tenacity. This makes me have experience.
I am a person. A now; man. I take nothing for granted with this life I have been blessed with. I forget how hard I have had to work to make it extra. But I do because I am fastinated. My peculiar gift. This along side a loving family, and my love for my friends. I am gifted. It all keeps me breathing, sometimes maniacally satiated. But I too suffer. Suffer hard, feel the lonely in life and personal and private struggles I breath through.
I do the best I can and I think I do better at being better. This is my expectation of everyone I want mingling with the life of my own. Because I need leaders, mentors, lovers, and the people that I identify as those living this life they honor.
And so I am the doing. If I am being jealous. I am jealous. If I am deceitful and fall corrupt. Even for a moment- my doing is who I am.
Every moment in life is not bliss. My sadness, my scars and limps in my heart, my understanding of loneliness. The unfair traumas and the traumas I deserve are the life we have. The lessons through thick and thin give us value as guides, and friends, and parents and elders.
I am a person like you- neighbor. I know you struggle. I hope to be there for you and I selfishly and desperately am needing that from you.
We are the doing. | Posted on 15/Sep/2023 10:09:15
