Alice Evans Instagram – So.. this is new for me to discuss this but I am dealing with some pretty bad anxiety today.
I actually made a short video about it but I don’t have the balls to post it.
I have been trying to talk my way out of it – I know I am so blessed and I really truly am grateful for all the love I have in my life and the incredible people I am lucky enough to know and known. The places I have gotten to see.
But sometimes chemical or ‘learned’ anxiety raises its head literally out of nowhere and catastrophizing ensues. And I don’t know if anybody else can relate to this, but my reaction to anxiety is to procrastinate.
I mean, that’s SO DUMB! The blatantly obvious thing to do would be to take some sort of action. Move. Stretch. Tidy a room. Go for a walk. Organize my closets which look like thrift store bargain bins and give me anxiety every time I look at them. But it doesn’t work like that. I’m normally a pretty active person but when anxiety strikes I go into complete ‘freeze’ mode. Which just feeds the cycle.
Before all this ( bar all four of my driving tests and auditions for roles I’m totally unsuitable for) I don’t think I really felt much fear. Certainly not inexplicable anxiety.
But then I had my kids and everything changed. It started even before Ella was born. I spent so much time worrying I would lose the baby – but I figured it was just hormones and you know – it’s what we’re programmed to do when we have babies. Keep them safe! But it never went away. I had my first major panic attack in 2013 when I was pregnant with Elsie. I was at an event and the paramedics were called. I thought I was having a heart attack.
I have spoken to many, many other people who struggle with this – some way worse than me. I wanted to draw attention to it because I was SO oblivious until it happened to me and I don’t think I listened enough. I just wanted to reach out to any of you who suffer, and tell you all I get it. I really do. It’s real. ❤️❤️❤️
PS: in my defense I took 4 driving tests in 2 separate countries and 12 years apart so technically only failed twice – once in each! 🫣😂 | Posted on 09/Jun/2024 04:48:40
