Amanda Zhou Instagram – 🌿Embracing each step🤍 It’s been a while since I have really committed this virtual path. Probably since Spinning Out. It’s been on and off. Life, with all its twists and turns, led me to a space where each step felt heavy, and the silence between posts spoke volumes. After losing my beloved mother, every day became a journey of putting one foot in front of the other. By no means was our relationship perfect but that’s the thing I long for even one more mother daughter dispute. So engaging a little, withdrawing a bit – finding a rhythm that resonates with the ebb and flow of grief and healing. In the quiet, I found pain, shame, guilt, numbness, but in the stillness, I discovered, solace and strength. I have found joyful shared moments but I don’t know what I am doing for the most part. And I don’t know if my piece of heart will ever fully heal. I frequently talk to my neighbouring demons who are living rent free in my head. So I am still figuring it out. Aren’t we all? Despite all this, life is a beautiful mosaic of moments, that include the good to ugly. For those of you who stayed through all of that for your friends and for yourself, you’re a real one. Cheers to being a mess, to open hearts and compassion, to listening and understanding, to the courage to forgive, and to simply trying our best. Cheers to a New Year and a new chapter. I am going to go have some tea with one of my demons now and maybe convince her to do a tango or a paso doble? Hah.