Zaria

Zaria Instagram – A lil 205 bts. It’s 14 seconds but there’s so much tangled beneath it all. The quiet respect and reverence so lovingly gifted me by cast and crew. The slow, diligent focus taught to me by the incomparable @the_acting_guru . When I first started acting I used to put so much pressure on my “ability to cry on cue”. I read somewhere Hayden Panettiere could do it and it sent me into a spiral. That was the telltale sign of a “good actor” in my mind for a while. Now, I see it as a beautiful piece of the puzzle. Like a laugh or a smile that crawls across your face when a baby coos. Something to practice but never rely on. Something to welcome and not to force. I’ll keep a cry stick just in case director needs it and body doesn’t. But, and maybe it’s the pleasure of knowing Faran so long now, anytime Faran’s needed a tear, I’ve been able to give her one. An offering for all the Black girls compelled to be strong in a society that forces that ponderous weight on them. I wept for Faran this day. I wept for myself. And here, in this video, I am picturing the tightrope. If you look at my lips, I whisper “ready” to the phenomenal director Alex Pillai. I know he can hear my whisper through the mic. I must focus on what Faran needs. To stay present. I am teetering, welling up, balancing on the art of holding the tear til action, and thinking everything Faran is thinking in that moment in time. Thank you to everyone who made this lil moment possible I am forever grateful to tell Faran’s story. 🥹❤️ | Posted on 01/Jun/2024 05:22:42