Chloé Hayden Instagram – (Belated) Happy birthd(influenza (A))y
Birthdays are my favourite favourite occasions to celebrate, and being sick is my least least favourite thing; so coming down with Influenza A the day before meant a lot of disappointment and a lot of change; the only two things I hate more than being sick.
Still, having family who know my every love language and love me in every way that I need and know has shifted the sadness; I woke up to an extravagant party worth of Bluey decorations from my husband who was up all night decorating the house, who made me donuts (a birthday brekkie tradition), AND bought me Titanic Lego (Iykyk 😭🥺), a family who still safely visited and brought me even more balloons and get well packs, and a promise of the not-change-birthday-celebrations as soon as I’m well again. Change is my absolute enemy, but also my greatest teacher and reminder that despite change (as hospital’y and scary as it can be) there will always be sames, always be sparkles.
As a little follow up; I’m posting this four days after my birthday as I was absolutely ✨KO’ed✨ until now. And in reflection; I so often find myself growing embarrassed about my feelings and emotions and sadness. ‘How dare you be sad about birthdays when the world has so much more to be sad about’, ‘you should be ashamed for feeling so deeply’.
I often have to remind myself what a gift it is to be sensitive, to feel wholly and deeply and completely. It does not invalidate the other sadness, and your own feelings are worthy of being felt. If this is you, too, be gentle with yourself, you are allowed to feel, your emotions are allowed to take up space 💛
Thank you for the birthday wishes 💛 | Posted on 26/Jul/2024 06:40:05
