Stella Lee Instagram – 32 years later, and it’s first time to visit the country of where my grandfather came from. Although I am considered /Chinese Indonesian/, I do not speak mandarin nor have any more close family members left in the country. I was born and raised in Jakarta, but some people dictated that I was not a part of this country and had to go back to China
I questioned my identity and the world, because I dont see any differences between our skin or hair color. Why was the oppression exist?
I visited China for the first time after stamped my passport with countless countries, and there’s nothing but a distant feeling. I feel like an outsider, and just a normal tourist in the city although I look the same. I have troubles when speaking with some people here because my mandarin is worse than my japanese or english. And I cant even eat some of the foods
Despite all of that, I feel mesmerized by how advanced the country is, how kind the people are, and how beautiful the cities are. It’s a weird and mixed feeling but I miss the flavor of Bakmi Babi in Kelapa Gading, as I love Chinese Food in Indonesia more.. I crave for Angke or even Nasi Campur Pontianak.. And even I miss the taste of Ayam Pop at Pagi Sore. Even no one can compete with Indonesia Bakmi Goreng 😝
I may have Chinese blood running on my veins but I am still an Indonesian, and forever will be. I appreciate the culture, history, and foods in China, but it cant take away my identity. No one can tell me to go back home, because my home is one and only, Indonesia 🇮🇩 Despite how awful the politics and government, how macet the cities are, and the bad pollution, Indonesia is still my motherland ✨
Praying for any racism, war, and oppression vanish from this world. But even if not, lets start from ourselves 🙏🏻 | Posted on 21/Sep/2024 12:19:10
