Brittany S. Hall Instagram – “Growth is Gradual “
127 lbs vs 132 lbs
I started the top of the year so different. First of all, I wasn’t taking care of myself the way I am now. Mentally, emotionally, or physically. There was much room to grow. So I chose to spend this year focused on GROWTH. 🌱
Throughout the year, I fell off at times. Sometimes it was because of work. Sometimes it was because of emotions. Sometimes it was because of my health. I started weight lifting again and then BOOM, a knee injury. Not only did I have to sit my ass down, but when I got up again I had to get over the emotional hump of feeling like I’m starting over. I started rebuilding anyway. Then I had a health scare where my left arm would randomly go numb and have the feeling of pins in needles. For 3 months my faith in my own healing was tested. The feeling was gone by November. September I challenged my self to Sober September which made me realize how much my body actually doesn’t enjoy nor need alcohol. So I kept going. I haven’t had a drink since and truly don’t desire one, no matter what emotions are overflowing.
I use to smoke blunts (I know, who knew 🤫. I’m a girl from the DMV, I use to love some woods🤭).I gave that up in July.
I took an 8 week course on emotional intelligence taught by @bluecentric this year which humbled me in the best way possible. I wasn’t as emotionally intelligent as I thought. That may have been my favorite thing I discovered about myself this year. It’s been helping me plant new seeds of forgiveness, perspective and accountability.
I also had to get comfortable in my own skin again. It’s been a process, an internal thing, figuring out this new body, this new mindset, this new reality, and accepting it.
Sharing all this feels vulnerable more than anything. It’s a reminder we all have our journey and we want to feel proud of ourselves in the end. We are all learning to love ourselves in different ways and through all the changes. I strive not to be perfect. That was my mindset in my 20s. Now at 37, I really just strive to be better than the old me.
This was a year of a lot of change. And sometimes growing pains. Yet I’m proud of to be here, where I am, as I am. | Posted on 24/Dec/2024 04:39:46
