Meghan Tonjes Instagram – Finding this “songwriting” folder from almost 15 years ago had me in a full breakdown last night.
I remember being 19, never having written any kind of music and buying a guitar. I would constantly be listening to music and praying that one day I could write a song, too. Three months later I was at a coffee shop open mic playing the first one I’d written.
And, then there I am five years later, sitting in my bedroom and recording videos of me playing more songs I was writing (so I wouldn’t forget them). I just remember writing song after song, like a door had been opened and all of these different melodies came pouring out. So many feelings!
Anyway, finding this last night had me feeling a mix of things. I feel proud of younger me for jumping entirely in. Sharing those songs took me on so many adventures and opened up entire worlds for me. I feel grief because I do feel like I asked for a gift that I have neglected over the past few years and I haven’t made the space or taken the responsibility for it in the same way younger me did. And, I know somewhere in there I gotta forgive myself for pivoting in the ways I did to stay afloat. Even if it’s not all I’m capable of, I know I was doing the best I could.
My friend sent me a really sweet voice note today, telling me that those same songs were really a backdrop for an entire chapter of their life, too. “I’ve grown to the sound of your voice”. Me too. | Posted on 26/Feb/2025 22:53:50
