Alex Asogwa Instagram – 2:59am How did I get to this point?
*inserts Price tag by Jessie J*
It took a lot to get me out of the house today. Why did it have to take so much to convince me?
3:19am I haven’t typed since, still trying to make sense of it.
3:47am Ok, they are playing songs for bed now so I can sit and type.
I didn’t notice myself get so serious, with my one sentence captions and unintentional disconnection from actually living. It’s been work, hyper focusing so I don’t procrastinate and overwhelm. Thanks to @youvolving.co, I actually get things ticked off my to do list no matter how I’m feeling.
I tell myself that I need to have more fun, make more friends, go out more and loosen up but yo 😂, once I’m out, I’m tired in 10 minutes.
The energy is always crossed legs, content, Snapchat and smiles I don’t feel comes from inside for most. The best parts are posted on the media and we repeat the routine another day.
Did I lose my spark, have I become too serious with life , are my friends the boring ones or has my idea of fun changed? because dancing here now makes me look like the mad one. I’ll close my eyes, zone out and do it anyway but why does it have be this way ?
I just caught myself burst a move now. Dance is calling me, brb.
4:19am Lovely performances at the club, I actually enjoyed it. Now that burst of energy went round and everyone has the perfect snap. Today was fun 🤔.
My initial excuse for not wanting to come out ?
“The wig i’ll prefer to wear hasn’t been styled, I didn’t plan an outfit, I’m sleepy”.
Well, I wore the wig like that, wore a Jean and top which ended up being my mood for the night. “I don’t care, I came out to have fun”, that’s the mood. (Am I the only one that stays in the mood of what I’m wearing most times?)
4:49am I’m in the car, leaving the club and I’m so grateful I came out today. Will try to be out again next week. The hack, just close my eyes and understand that it’s my world.
Now let me go and scream my songs from my window on the drive home as usual.
5:03am, my alarm just went off but guess what , I’m done. It’s rang like that for a year and I just snooze/end each time. Today, I just wrote before it rang. Weldone Alex. | Posted on 10/Apr/2025 10:03:30
