In honor of Mental Health Awareness Month, I wanted to take a moment to be fully transparent. I do my best to keep things pretty positive and control the energy that I put out or project onto the people that I am closest with. But we’re all human and we all deal with different battles behind closed doors. I’ve struggled with imposter syndrome for as long as I can remember. I’m not sure if it stems from entering the entertainment industry at such a young age and experiencing highs and lows that a child is just not fully prepared to comprehend. To some of you, I am your friend Raquel from Long Island NY, or Gertie Trinkie in Jersey Girl, or “that girl from The Voice” or a songwriter. And if I’m being honest, sometimes it can be really challenging to fully understand who I am and what I actually do or what I’m “good” at. I have been so blessed on my journey thus far and I am so excited for what’s next. But I’d be lying if I said I didn’t deal with what (sometimes) feels like a crippling fear that all that has happened in my life is the “peak” or “end of the road” when it comes to the level of success I’ve once experienced. Choosing to be in this industry is choosing to live in a place of uncertainty, fear of not being good enough, comparison, struggle, etc. and I just wanted to share that it is totally okay to let yourself sit in moments like these. It’s normal. And I am starting to realize that we ALL go through this, it’s just not the popular thing to talk about publicly. I can’t tell you how many times I film a self tape audition for an acting project with this voice in my head telling me to just quit and give up and accept that my time is up as an actress, or that I write a song and just let it sit on my hard drive because I feel like it’s not good enough to show to anyone, or literally even just feel like I am not a good enough friend or daughter or co worker etc. Maybe if we’re all a little more honest with each other we won’t feel so isolated in these kind of thoughts. Here is a song I just wrote that made me FEEL something. And honestly, that is a good enough reason for me to share it with you.Love you all🤍 Surrender your darkness into the light of God ✨
