Last night at 6pm somehow @ollielockeworld & @garethplocke telepathically knew that I was having a hard time & shedding a few tears- (as it’s my first Christmas in 38 years that I’m spending away from my family) and texted me in that moment: Steph, get your Xmas jammies on & get over here bc your spending the night and watching Christmas movies with us. Gareth is making mac n cheese & we have puddings galore. I wiped my tears, put on some under eye concealer, grabbed Max and hopped in a cab so fast. I am so beyond lucky to have these gorgeous souls who literally spend their days thinking about other people. I will never forget this and I hope one day I can make you feel as loved and safe as you make me feel. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷 back home now getting ready for their Christmas party 🎉 🥰 Happy Christmas to all of you ❤️🫶🏻🎅🏻🎄
More & more I’ve been feeling like I’m not cut out for this world. A therapist told me my sensitivity & empathy were my superpower. Personally I’d prefer to be numb so I’m not so affected . Now that everything is gone and my days are filled with fear and worry I feel even more disconnected from my friends and former life. I see people able to compartmentalise and carry on with their lives. It’s frustrating I can’t get past the feelings. I don’t know where I go from here. I don’t know whose life I’m living bc I don’t recognise it… so I just hold my little boy and he kisses my tears away. But I wish it would all just go away
I don’t know if it’s a good thing I’m in London or I need to get back to LA. I can’t think straight. What do I do? Honestly looking for advice. I’m frozen in shock. How horrible for my sweet little nephews to watch their house disappear like this. They must be so scared and confused. I guess the silver lining for me is if my house goes it’s only my stuff- not years of family memories like everyone else in the palisades 🥺. Help me what’s my next move
When I’m suffering I hide away from the world- I see the messages & im going to open and respond soon (and do a proper post for my town). Im sorry It’s going to be slow I’m still in utter disbelief. But as I’m down the road doing the same thing at our parents house- I walked to my car in my usual flood of tears got in & saw this video. Spencer you have been the voice of the palisades & the town jester trying to spread happiness to all of our friends and lifelong neighbours. On behalf of everyone who benefits a laugh during the unbearable time from your constant content… THANK YOU. I know this brave face must be exhausting but it means so much to all of us. I’m so sorry and I love you guys so much – I’m just shattered for you. For everyone. 38 years here burned to rubble
Cancer survivor & fire survivor 🩷 my hero daddy 🩷 the sweetest 🤗
Cancer survivor & fire survivor 🩷 my hero daddy 🩷 the sweetest 🤗
Cancer survivor & fire survivor 🩷 my hero daddy 🩷 the sweetest 🤗
Naughty or nice 🎄
Thank you for the birthday wishes 🩷 grateful for my family & Pali community. I left my trunk open while I was staring at our home of 38 years- taking in memories, wishing more than anything we had our photo albums to relive those moments. Even a baby photo. I know it’s probably unhealthy but I do this most days & yesterday when I was leaving …my birthday balloon had escaped from my car and found its place – where it should have been all along at home with our hearts . I miss you palisades I miss you neighbours and friends. It’s like our whole history was erased 🥺❤️🩹 lots of love to everyone going through a hard time xoxoxo
Thank you for the birthday wishes 🩷 grateful for my family & Pali community. I left my trunk open while I was staring at our home of 38 years- taking in memories, wishing more than anything we had our photo albums to relive those moments. Even a baby photo. I know it’s probably unhealthy but I do this most days & yesterday when I was leaving …my birthday balloon had escaped from my car and found its place – where it should have been all along at home with our hearts . I miss you palisades I miss you neighbours and friends. It’s like our whole history was erased 🥺❤️🩹 lots of love to everyone going through a hard time xoxoxo
Thank you for the birthday wishes 🩷 grateful for my family & Pali community. I left my trunk open while I was staring at our home of 38 years- taking in memories, wishing more than anything we had our photo albums to relive those moments. Even a baby photo. I know it’s probably unhealthy but I do this most days & yesterday when I was leaving …my birthday balloon had escaped from my car and found its place – where it should have been all along at home with our hearts . I miss you palisades I miss you neighbours and friends. It’s like our whole history was erased 🥺❤️🩹 lots of love to everyone going through a hard time xoxoxo
Thank you for the birthday wishes 🩷 grateful for my family & Pali community. I left my trunk open while I was staring at our home of 38 years- taking in memories, wishing more than anything we had our photo albums to relive those moments. Even a baby photo. I know it’s probably unhealthy but I do this most days & yesterday when I was leaving …my birthday balloon had escaped from my car and found its place – where it should have been all along at home with our hearts . I miss you palisades I miss you neighbours and friends. It’s like our whole history was erased 🥺❤️🩹 lots of love to everyone going through a hard time xoxoxo
Thank you for the birthday wishes 🩷 grateful for my family & Pali community. I left my trunk open while I was staring at our home of 38 years- taking in memories, wishing more than anything we had our photo albums to relive those moments. Even a baby photo. I know it’s probably unhealthy but I do this most days & yesterday when I was leaving …my birthday balloon had escaped from my car and found its place – where it should have been all along at home with our hearts . I miss you palisades I miss you neighbours and friends. It’s like our whole history was erased 🥺❤️🩹 lots of love to everyone going through a hard time xoxoxo
Thank you for the birthday wishes 🩷 grateful for my family & Pali community. I left my trunk open while I was staring at our home of 38 years- taking in memories, wishing more than anything we had our photo albums to relive those moments. Even a baby photo. I know it’s probably unhealthy but I do this most days & yesterday when I was leaving …my birthday balloon had escaped from my car and found its place – where it should have been all along at home with our hearts . I miss you palisades I miss you neighbours and friends. It’s like our whole history was erased 🥺❤️🩹 lots of love to everyone going through a hard time xoxoxo
Thank you for the birthday wishes 🩷 grateful for my family & Pali community. I left my trunk open while I was staring at our home of 38 years- taking in memories, wishing more than anything we had our photo albums to relive those moments. Even a baby photo. I know it’s probably unhealthy but I do this most days & yesterday when I was leaving …my birthday balloon had escaped from my car and found its place – where it should have been all along at home with our hearts . I miss you palisades I miss you neighbours and friends. It’s like our whole history was erased 🥺❤️🩹 lots of love to everyone going through a hard time xoxoxo
Thank you for the birthday wishes 🩷 grateful for my family & Pali community. I left my trunk open while I was staring at our home of 38 years- taking in memories, wishing more than anything we had our photo albums to relive those moments. Even a baby photo. I know it’s probably unhealthy but I do this most days & yesterday when I was leaving …my birthday balloon had escaped from my car and found its place – where it should have been all along at home with our hearts . I miss you palisades I miss you neighbours and friends. It’s like our whole history was erased 🥺❤️🩹 lots of love to everyone going through a hard time xoxoxo
Thank you for the birthday wishes 🩷 grateful for my family & Pali community. I left my trunk open while I was staring at our home of 38 years- taking in memories, wishing more than anything we had our photo albums to relive those moments. Even a baby photo. I know it’s probably unhealthy but I do this most days & yesterday when I was leaving …my birthday balloon had escaped from my car and found its place – where it should have been all along at home with our hearts . I miss you palisades I miss you neighbours and friends. It’s like our whole history was erased 🥺❤️🩹 lots of love to everyone going through a hard time xoxoxo
Happy Earth Day @mayorofla mayor Karen Bass from our homes to yours. newscum #waterreservoir choosing to save a tribal fish with our tax dollars- (without telling us that you were emptying our fire hydrants to do so) instead of keeping American families safe during fire season. There were so many ignored warnings, starting a year ago. Even 5 days before there was an alert of high winds. There was time to prevent this historical catastrophe and you didn’t want to. When will our air and oceans be safe again? #earthday2025🌍🏞️🪸🐠 🌊🌥️
Happy Earth Day @mayorofla mayor Karen Bass from our homes to yours. newscum #waterreservoir choosing to save a tribal fish with our tax dollars- (without telling us that you were emptying our fire hydrants to do so) instead of keeping American families safe during fire season. There were so many ignored warnings, starting a year ago. Even 5 days before there was an alert of high winds. There was time to prevent this historical catastrophe and you didn’t want to. When will our air and oceans be safe again? #earthday2025🌍🏞️🪸🐠 🌊🌥️
Happy Earth Day @mayorofla mayor Karen Bass from our homes to yours. newscum #waterreservoir choosing to save a tribal fish with our tax dollars- (without telling us that you were emptying our fire hydrants to do so) instead of keeping American families safe during fire season. There were so many ignored warnings, starting a year ago. Even 5 days before there was an alert of high winds. There was time to prevent this historical catastrophe and you didn’t want to. When will our air and oceans be safe again? #earthday2025🌍🏞️🪸🐠 🌊🌥️
Happy Earth Day @mayorofla mayor Karen Bass from our homes to yours. newscum #waterreservoir choosing to save a tribal fish with our tax dollars- (without telling us that you were emptying our fire hydrants to do so) instead of keeping American families safe during fire season. There were so many ignored warnings, starting a year ago. Even 5 days before there was an alert of high winds. There was time to prevent this historical catastrophe and you didn’t want to. When will our air and oceans be safe again? #earthday2025🌍🏞️🪸🐠 🌊🌥️
Happy Earth Day @mayorofla mayor Karen Bass from our homes to yours. newscum #waterreservoir choosing to save a tribal fish with our tax dollars- (without telling us that you were emptying our fire hydrants to do so) instead of keeping American families safe during fire season. There were so many ignored warnings, starting a year ago. Even 5 days before there was an alert of high winds. There was time to prevent this historical catastrophe and you didn’t want to. When will our air and oceans be safe again? #earthday2025🌍🏞️🪸🐠 🌊🌥️
And then I see this 🥺 I didn’t find anything at mom and dads 😔
