Pavni Mehrotra Instagram – So, in May 2025, I attended advanced meditation course of @artofliving in Rishikesh and after that something inside me has changed forever. 🪷
Almost 25 years of my life, I ‘ve been finding the fault in the outer world, I was either living in the past or in the future. It always felt like I am unable to live and feel the present moment.
Though, I seemed to look the happiest person from the outside but from the inside I was the saddest person.
I cried, I yelled and screamed….. I often screamed so loud, that my voice crossed the frequency of human sound so no one could ever hear me
The reason I’ve been unhappy, all my life was unknown to me. My family, my personal life, my friends. Everything was absolutely perfect as one could dream of.
But, still there was so much of hollowness and void inside that never filled up no matter how much anyone loved me, no matter how much success, fame or money I got, absolutely nothing, nothing really mattered .
It still itched & pained inside. Why was it? What was it? I never understood.
Since, the time I got introduced to yoga and meditation, and My therapist it felt like the whole perspective of my life took a 360* turn.
I never knew, but I did hold a lot of anxiety inside me for years and years, that just came out in the form of severe depression.
In the process of healing from depression, I paused my career and simply focused on improving my lifestyle adapting good positive habits.
To be honest now, it doesn’t really bother me about losing my followers or not being very active on insta.
What matters to me is I can’t afford to loose my mind, loose myself, loose real people and connections that I’ve built over the years.
I honestly can’t afford to loose the true meaning of life.
Which is not just living for yourself, but living for others♥️
“बुरा जो देख मैं चला, बुरा ना मिल्या कोए जो मुन्न खोजा अपना, तो मुझसे बुरा ना कोए”🙏🫶 | Posted on 21/Jul/2025 17:20:37
