Lola Young Instagram – I’m only f**king myself.
Here it is, out in the world, fuck.
This is something i wrote before finishing this record, (yes, i was in a dark place):
‘so. here’s the thing
Im only fucking myself… well.,; not literally..well yes, i mean, sometimes.. .: i guess it depends which way you look at it, of course, i mean everything is about perspective at the end of the day,.
I really wish i could tell you,
that all this title means is that i just use my pink dildo every night, and yeah i do, but always seem to cry after,
Cause
Im only fucking myself in so many other ways….like i dont know, clinging onto anger, falling in and out of love all the time, still seeing my ex because he makes me feel something, and i need to feel something, allll the time,
im only fucking myself sniffing white powder all day,
, its fun, until its not, i like the high just as much as the next guy, but truth is, i actually need to fucking stop,
I cant live in real life, but highs dont last forever, so real life is all i’ve really got at the end of the day.,’
and if i dont get a goddamn grip of my own fucking life i’m not too sure what’s going to happen.
I’m writing this album, and calling it i’m only fucking myself because truthfully, i want to eventually look at my life and smile, but i’m still working things out…for now..i’m gonna keep writing and hopefully i’ll be okay ‘
Im now 6 months sober, and a lot happier,
I no longer see my ex, i am a lot less angry, life is better and
I still use my pink dildo, theres just less crying after x | Posted on 19/Sep/2025 17:36:52
