my beautiful queen grandma suddenly passed on the day of my mom’s two month death anniversary 💔 I’d just like god to give us a break from all this pain💔 rest in peace angel . You were the embodiment of kindness and grace all your life. My favorite thing to do with you was cuddle in your bed and the last time we did I thought of how you were one of my last maternal vessels on earth 💔 love you forever
my beautiful queen grandma suddenly passed on the day of my mom’s two month death anniversary 💔 I’d just like god to give us a break from all this pain💔 rest in peace angel . You were the embodiment of kindness and grace all your life. My favorite thing to do with you was cuddle in your bed and the last time we did I thought of how you were one of my last maternal vessels on earth 💔 love you forever
love is all that matters lately 🦋🦋 thank u for being a rock
love is all that matters lately 🦋🦋 thank u for being a rock
love is all that matters lately 🦋🦋 thank u for being a rock
love is all that matters lately 🦋🦋 thank u for being a rock
love is all that matters lately 🦋🦋 thank u for being a rock
love is all that matters lately 🦋🦋 thank u for being a rock
love is all that matters lately 🦋🦋 thank u for being a rock
another birthday , another year around the sun 🐠I can’t really say it’s the happiest of birthdays, but here’s some bits of joy from this upside down year ☹️🩵 missing mom like crazy, cancer caregiving burnout, wildfires, losing my mom and grandma back to back in 2 months, displacement/ moving several times in 9 months & never really having a sense of home all year, attending a funeral for my closest loved one on my birthday, betrayal, unprecedented work & financial stress after I came back from bereavement … & so much more I can’t even share … god had a very strange sadness soup for me this year 😒🤣 I don’t think I can even yet understand the impact of each crisis fully , never mind what it means to experience it all at once in 9 months. How humbling though to be so very human. I always thought that if I lost almost everything I’d be perfectly fine because of “the power of meditation” and when you actually start to lose so much… well, somethings are bigger than meditation. I feel closer to understanding different shades of suffering and humility that I never could have in younger years. I’m so over the constant grief and chaos and I just feel that now is the time to draw up on some unshakeable ancestral strength and embody the warrior. I have to believe in the beauty of new things replacing all this burning. I have to believe in my own softness and that I won’t harden from all of this. one day maybe I will make a great album about all this 😭 I’m nowback in India letting more loved ones go , surrendering to it all. Nothing is mine and nothing ever was . In being closer to my own shadow and waves of suffering I also feel so grateful on this birthday for any spark of being alive and all the gifts that still remain for me… Grateful for 🦋 family 🦋 butterflies 🦋 the tiny relief after a big cry 🦋 knowing 🦋 not knowing 🦋 India 🦋 places near my family home in India m that still look the same and have the same shopkeepers and same brand of ice cream we’d get as kids 🦋 romance transforming and adjusting 🦋 portals of change 🦋 youuu
another birthday , another year around the sun 🐠I can’t really say it’s the happiest of birthdays, but here’s some bits of joy from this upside down year ☹️🩵 missing mom like crazy, cancer caregiving burnout, wildfires, losing my mom and grandma back to back in 2 months, displacement/ moving several times in 9 months & never really having a sense of home all year, attending a funeral for my closest loved one on my birthday, betrayal, unprecedented work & financial stress after I came back from bereavement … & so much more I can’t even share … god had a very strange sadness soup for me this year 😒🤣 I don’t think I can even yet understand the impact of each crisis fully , never mind what it means to experience it all at once in 9 months. How humbling though to be so very human. I always thought that if I lost almost everything I’d be perfectly fine because of “the power of meditation” and when you actually start to lose so much… well, somethings are bigger than meditation. I feel closer to understanding different shades of suffering and humility that I never could have in younger years. I’m so over the constant grief and chaos and I just feel that now is the time to draw up on some unshakeable ancestral strength and embody the warrior. I have to believe in the beauty of new things replacing all this burning. I have to believe in my own softness and that I won’t harden from all of this. one day maybe I will make a great album about all this 😭 I’m nowback in India letting more loved ones go , surrendering to it all. Nothing is mine and nothing ever was . In being closer to my own shadow and waves of suffering I also feel so grateful on this birthday for any spark of being alive and all the gifts that still remain for me… Grateful for 🦋 family 🦋 butterflies 🦋 the tiny relief after a big cry 🦋 knowing 🦋 not knowing 🦋 India 🦋 places near my family home in India m that still look the same and have the same shopkeepers and same brand of ice cream we’d get as kids 🦋 romance transforming and adjusting 🦋 portals of change 🦋 youuu
another birthday , another year around the sun 🐠I can’t really say it’s the happiest of birthdays, but here’s some bits of joy from this upside down year ☹️🩵 missing mom like crazy, cancer caregiving burnout, wildfires, losing my mom and grandma back to back in 2 months, displacement/ moving several times in 9 months & never really having a sense of home all year, attending a funeral for my closest loved one on my birthday, betrayal, unprecedented work & financial stress after I came back from bereavement … & so much more I can’t even share … god had a very strange sadness soup for me this year 😒🤣 I don’t think I can even yet understand the impact of each crisis fully , never mind what it means to experience it all at once in 9 months. How humbling though to be so very human. I always thought that if I lost almost everything I’d be perfectly fine because of “the power of meditation” and when you actually start to lose so much… well, somethings are bigger than meditation. I feel closer to understanding different shades of suffering and humility that I never could have in younger years. I’m so over the constant grief and chaos and I just feel that now is the time to draw up on some unshakeable ancestral strength and embody the warrior. I have to believe in the beauty of new things replacing all this burning. I have to believe in my own softness and that I won’t harden from all of this. one day maybe I will make a great album about all this 😭 I’m nowback in India letting more loved ones go , surrendering to it all. Nothing is mine and nothing ever was . In being closer to my own shadow and waves of suffering I also feel so grateful on this birthday for any spark of being alive and all the gifts that still remain for me… Grateful for 🦋 family 🦋 butterflies 🦋 the tiny relief after a big cry 🦋 knowing 🦋 not knowing 🦋 India 🦋 places near my family home in India m that still look the same and have the same shopkeepers and same brand of ice cream we’d get as kids 🦋 romance transforming and adjusting 🦋 portals of change 🦋 youuu
another birthday , another year around the sun 🐠I can’t really say it’s the happiest of birthdays, but here’s some bits of joy from this upside down year ☹️🩵 missing mom like crazy, cancer caregiving burnout, wildfires, losing my mom and grandma back to back in 2 months, displacement/ moving several times in 9 months & never really having a sense of home all year, attending a funeral for my closest loved one on my birthday, betrayal, unprecedented work & financial stress after I came back from bereavement … & so much more I can’t even share … god had a very strange sadness soup for me this year 😒🤣 I don’t think I can even yet understand the impact of each crisis fully , never mind what it means to experience it all at once in 9 months. How humbling though to be so very human. I always thought that if I lost almost everything I’d be perfectly fine because of “the power of meditation” and when you actually start to lose so much… well, somethings are bigger than meditation. I feel closer to understanding different shades of suffering and humility that I never could have in younger years. I’m so over the constant grief and chaos and I just feel that now is the time to draw up on some unshakeable ancestral strength and embody the warrior. I have to believe in the beauty of new things replacing all this burning. I have to believe in my own softness and that I won’t harden from all of this. one day maybe I will make a great album about all this 😭 I’m nowback in India letting more loved ones go , surrendering to it all. Nothing is mine and nothing ever was . In being closer to my own shadow and waves of suffering I also feel so grateful on this birthday for any spark of being alive and all the gifts that still remain for me… Grateful for 🦋 family 🦋 butterflies 🦋 the tiny relief after a big cry 🦋 knowing 🦋 not knowing 🦋 India 🦋 places near my family home in India m that still look the same and have the same shopkeepers and same brand of ice cream we’d get as kids 🦋 romance transforming and adjusting 🦋 portals of change 🦋 youuu
another birthday , another year around the sun 🐠I can’t really say it’s the happiest of birthdays, but here’s some bits of joy from this upside down year ☹️🩵 missing mom like crazy, cancer caregiving burnout, wildfires, losing my mom and grandma back to back in 2 months, displacement/ moving several times in 9 months & never really having a sense of home all year, attending a funeral for my closest loved one on my birthday, betrayal, unprecedented work & financial stress after I came back from bereavement … & so much more I can’t even share … god had a very strange sadness soup for me this year 😒🤣 I don’t think I can even yet understand the impact of each crisis fully , never mind what it means to experience it all at once in 9 months. How humbling though to be so very human. I always thought that if I lost almost everything I’d be perfectly fine because of “the power of meditation” and when you actually start to lose so much… well, somethings are bigger than meditation. I feel closer to understanding different shades of suffering and humility that I never could have in younger years. I’m so over the constant grief and chaos and I just feel that now is the time to draw up on some unshakeable ancestral strength and embody the warrior. I have to believe in the beauty of new things replacing all this burning. I have to believe in my own softness and that I won’t harden from all of this. one day maybe I will make a great album about all this 😭 I’m nowback in India letting more loved ones go , surrendering to it all. Nothing is mine and nothing ever was . In being closer to my own shadow and waves of suffering I also feel so grateful on this birthday for any spark of being alive and all the gifts that still remain for me… Grateful for 🦋 family 🦋 butterflies 🦋 the tiny relief after a big cry 🦋 knowing 🦋 not knowing 🦋 India 🦋 places near my family home in India m that still look the same and have the same shopkeepers and same brand of ice cream we’d get as kids 🦋 romance transforming and adjusting 🦋 portals of change 🦋 youuu
another birthday , another year around the sun 🐠I can’t really say it’s the happiest of birthdays, but here’s some bits of joy from this upside down year ☹️🩵 missing mom like crazy, cancer caregiving burnout, wildfires, losing my mom and grandma back to back in 2 months, displacement/ moving several times in 9 months & never really having a sense of home all year, attending a funeral for my closest loved one on my birthday, betrayal, unprecedented work & financial stress after I came back from bereavement … & so much more I can’t even share … god had a very strange sadness soup for me this year 😒🤣 I don’t think I can even yet understand the impact of each crisis fully , never mind what it means to experience it all at once in 9 months. How humbling though to be so very human. I always thought that if I lost almost everything I’d be perfectly fine because of “the power of meditation” and when you actually start to lose so much… well, somethings are bigger than meditation. I feel closer to understanding different shades of suffering and humility that I never could have in younger years. I’m so over the constant grief and chaos and I just feel that now is the time to draw up on some unshakeable ancestral strength and embody the warrior. I have to believe in the beauty of new things replacing all this burning. I have to believe in my own softness and that I won’t harden from all of this. one day maybe I will make a great album about all this 😭 I’m nowback in India letting more loved ones go , surrendering to it all. Nothing is mine and nothing ever was . In being closer to my own shadow and waves of suffering I also feel so grateful on this birthday for any spark of being alive and all the gifts that still remain for me… Grateful for 🦋 family 🦋 butterflies 🦋 the tiny relief after a big cry 🦋 knowing 🦋 not knowing 🦋 India 🦋 places near my family home in India m that still look the same and have the same shopkeepers and same brand of ice cream we’d get as kids 🦋 romance transforming and adjusting 🦋 portals of change 🦋 youuu
another birthday , another year around the sun 🐠I can’t really say it’s the happiest of birthdays, but here’s some bits of joy from this upside down year ☹️🩵 missing mom like crazy, cancer caregiving burnout, wildfires, losing my mom and grandma back to back in 2 months, displacement/ moving several times in 9 months & never really having a sense of home all year, attending a funeral for my closest loved one on my birthday, betrayal, unprecedented work & financial stress after I came back from bereavement … & so much more I can’t even share … god had a very strange sadness soup for me this year 😒🤣 I don’t think I can even yet understand the impact of each crisis fully , never mind what it means to experience it all at once in 9 months. How humbling though to be so very human. I always thought that if I lost almost everything I’d be perfectly fine because of “the power of meditation” and when you actually start to lose so much… well, somethings are bigger than meditation. I feel closer to understanding different shades of suffering and humility that I never could have in younger years. I’m so over the constant grief and chaos and I just feel that now is the time to draw up on some unshakeable ancestral strength and embody the warrior. I have to believe in the beauty of new things replacing all this burning. I have to believe in my own softness and that I won’t harden from all of this. one day maybe I will make a great album about all this 😭 I’m nowback in India letting more loved ones go , surrendering to it all. Nothing is mine and nothing ever was . In being closer to my own shadow and waves of suffering I also feel so grateful on this birthday for any spark of being alive and all the gifts that still remain for me… Grateful for 🦋 family 🦋 butterflies 🦋 the tiny relief after a big cry 🦋 knowing 🦋 not knowing 🦋 India 🦋 places near my family home in India m that still look the same and have the same shopkeepers and same brand of ice cream we’d get as kids 🦋 romance transforming and adjusting 🦋 portals of change 🦋 youuu
another birthday , another year around the sun 🐠I can’t really say it’s the happiest of birthdays, but here’s some bits of joy from this upside down year ☹️🩵 missing mom like crazy, cancer caregiving burnout, wildfires, losing my mom and grandma back to back in 2 months, displacement/ moving several times in 9 months & never really having a sense of home all year, attending a funeral for my closest loved one on my birthday, betrayal, unprecedented work & financial stress after I came back from bereavement … & so much more I can’t even share … god had a very strange sadness soup for me this year 😒🤣 I don’t think I can even yet understand the impact of each crisis fully , never mind what it means to experience it all at once in 9 months. How humbling though to be so very human. I always thought that if I lost almost everything I’d be perfectly fine because of “the power of meditation” and when you actually start to lose so much… well, somethings are bigger than meditation. I feel closer to understanding different shades of suffering and humility that I never could have in younger years. I’m so over the constant grief and chaos and I just feel that now is the time to draw up on some unshakeable ancestral strength and embody the warrior. I have to believe in the beauty of new things replacing all this burning. I have to believe in my own softness and that I won’t harden from all of this. one day maybe I will make a great album about all this 😭 I’m nowback in India letting more loved ones go , surrendering to it all. Nothing is mine and nothing ever was . In being closer to my own shadow and waves of suffering I also feel so grateful on this birthday for any spark of being alive and all the gifts that still remain for me… Grateful for 🦋 family 🦋 butterflies 🦋 the tiny relief after a big cry 🦋 knowing 🦋 not knowing 🦋 India 🦋 places near my family home in India m that still look the same and have the same shopkeepers and same brand of ice cream we’d get as kids 🦋 romance transforming and adjusting 🦋 portals of change 🦋 youuu
another birthday , another year around the sun 🐠I can’t really say it’s the happiest of birthdays, but here’s some bits of joy from this upside down year ☹️🩵 missing mom like crazy, cancer caregiving burnout, wildfires, losing my mom and grandma back to back in 2 months, displacement/ moving several times in 9 months & never really having a sense of home all year, attending a funeral for my closest loved one on my birthday, betrayal, unprecedented work & financial stress after I came back from bereavement … & so much more I can’t even share … god had a very strange sadness soup for me this year 😒🤣 I don’t think I can even yet understand the impact of each crisis fully , never mind what it means to experience it all at once in 9 months. How humbling though to be so very human. I always thought that if I lost almost everything I’d be perfectly fine because of “the power of meditation” and when you actually start to lose so much… well, somethings are bigger than meditation. I feel closer to understanding different shades of suffering and humility that I never could have in younger years. I’m so over the constant grief and chaos and I just feel that now is the time to draw up on some unshakeable ancestral strength and embody the warrior. I have to believe in the beauty of new things replacing all this burning. I have to believe in my own softness and that I won’t harden from all of this. one day maybe I will make a great album about all this 😭 I’m nowback in India letting more loved ones go , surrendering to it all. Nothing is mine and nothing ever was . In being closer to my own shadow and waves of suffering I also feel so grateful on this birthday for any spark of being alive and all the gifts that still remain for me… Grateful for 🦋 family 🦋 butterflies 🦋 the tiny relief after a big cry 🦋 knowing 🦋 not knowing 🦋 India 🦋 places near my family home in India m that still look the same and have the same shopkeepers and same brand of ice cream we’d get as kids 🦋 romance transforming and adjusting 🦋 portals of change 🦋 youuu
another birthday , another year around the sun 🐠I can’t really say it’s the happiest of birthdays, but here’s some bits of joy from this upside down year ☹️🩵 missing mom like crazy, cancer caregiving burnout, wildfires, losing my mom and grandma back to back in 2 months, displacement/ moving several times in 9 months & never really having a sense of home all year, attending a funeral for my closest loved one on my birthday, betrayal, unprecedented work & financial stress after I came back from bereavement … & so much more I can’t even share … god had a very strange sadness soup for me this year 😒🤣 I don’t think I can even yet understand the impact of each crisis fully , never mind what it means to experience it all at once in 9 months. How humbling though to be so very human. I always thought that if I lost almost everything I’d be perfectly fine because of “the power of meditation” and when you actually start to lose so much… well, somethings are bigger than meditation. I feel closer to understanding different shades of suffering and humility that I never could have in younger years. I’m so over the constant grief and chaos and I just feel that now is the time to draw up on some unshakeable ancestral strength and embody the warrior. I have to believe in the beauty of new things replacing all this burning. I have to believe in my own softness and that I won’t harden from all of this. one day maybe I will make a great album about all this 😭 I’m nowback in India letting more loved ones go , surrendering to it all. Nothing is mine and nothing ever was . In being closer to my own shadow and waves of suffering I also feel so grateful on this birthday for any spark of being alive and all the gifts that still remain for me… Grateful for 🦋 family 🦋 butterflies 🦋 the tiny relief after a big cry 🦋 knowing 🦋 not knowing 🦋 India 🦋 places near my family home in India m that still look the same and have the same shopkeepers and same brand of ice cream we’d get as kids 🦋 romance transforming and adjusting 🦋 portals of change 🦋 youuu
another birthday , another year around the sun 🐠I can’t really say it’s the happiest of birthdays, but here’s some bits of joy from this upside down year ☹️🩵 missing mom like crazy, cancer caregiving burnout, wildfires, losing my mom and grandma back to back in 2 months, displacement/ moving several times in 9 months & never really having a sense of home all year, attending a funeral for my closest loved one on my birthday, betrayal, unprecedented work & financial stress after I came back from bereavement … & so much more I can’t even share … god had a very strange sadness soup for me this year 😒🤣 I don’t think I can even yet understand the impact of each crisis fully , never mind what it means to experience it all at once in 9 months. How humbling though to be so very human. I always thought that if I lost almost everything I’d be perfectly fine because of “the power of meditation” and when you actually start to lose so much… well, somethings are bigger than meditation. I feel closer to understanding different shades of suffering and humility that I never could have in younger years. I’m so over the constant grief and chaos and I just feel that now is the time to draw up on some unshakeable ancestral strength and embody the warrior. I have to believe in the beauty of new things replacing all this burning. I have to believe in my own softness and that I won’t harden from all of this. one day maybe I will make a great album about all this 😭 I’m nowback in India letting more loved ones go , surrendering to it all. Nothing is mine and nothing ever was . In being closer to my own shadow and waves of suffering I also feel so grateful on this birthday for any spark of being alive and all the gifts that still remain for me… Grateful for 🦋 family 🦋 butterflies 🦋 the tiny relief after a big cry 🦋 knowing 🦋 not knowing 🦋 India 🦋 places near my family home in India m that still look the same and have the same shopkeepers and same brand of ice cream we’d get as kids 🦋 romance transforming and adjusting 🦋 portals of change 🦋 youuu
another birthday , another year around the sun 🐠I can’t really say it’s the happiest of birthdays, but here’s some bits of joy from this upside down year ☹️🩵 missing mom like crazy, cancer caregiving burnout, wildfires, losing my mom and grandma back to back in 2 months, displacement/ moving several times in 9 months & never really having a sense of home all year, attending a funeral for my closest loved one on my birthday, betrayal, unprecedented work & financial stress after I came back from bereavement … & so much more I can’t even share … god had a very strange sadness soup for me this year 😒🤣 I don’t think I can even yet understand the impact of each crisis fully , never mind what it means to experience it all at once in 9 months. How humbling though to be so very human. I always thought that if I lost almost everything I’d be perfectly fine because of “the power of meditation” and when you actually start to lose so much… well, somethings are bigger than meditation. I feel closer to understanding different shades of suffering and humility that I never could have in younger years. I’m so over the constant grief and chaos and I just feel that now is the time to draw up on some unshakeable ancestral strength and embody the warrior. I have to believe in the beauty of new things replacing all this burning. I have to believe in my own softness and that I won’t harden from all of this. one day maybe I will make a great album about all this 😭 I’m nowback in India letting more loved ones go , surrendering to it all. Nothing is mine and nothing ever was . In being closer to my own shadow and waves of suffering I also feel so grateful on this birthday for any spark of being alive and all the gifts that still remain for me… Grateful for 🦋 family 🦋 butterflies 🦋 the tiny relief after a big cry 🦋 knowing 🦋 not knowing 🦋 India 🦋 places near my family home in India m that still look the same and have the same shopkeepers and same brand of ice cream we’d get as kids 🦋 romance transforming and adjusting 🦋 portals of change 🦋 youuu
another birthday , another year around the sun 🐠I can’t really say it’s the happiest of birthdays, but here’s some bits of joy from this upside down year ☹️🩵 missing mom like crazy, cancer caregiving burnout, wildfires, losing my mom and grandma back to back in 2 months, displacement/ moving several times in 9 months & never really having a sense of home all year, attending a funeral for my closest loved one on my birthday, betrayal, unprecedented work & financial stress after I came back from bereavement … & so much more I can’t even share … god had a very strange sadness soup for me this year 😒🤣 I don’t think I can even yet understand the impact of each crisis fully , never mind what it means to experience it all at once in 9 months. How humbling though to be so very human. I always thought that if I lost almost everything I’d be perfectly fine because of “the power of meditation” and when you actually start to lose so much… well, somethings are bigger than meditation. I feel closer to understanding different shades of suffering and humility that I never could have in younger years. I’m so over the constant grief and chaos and I just feel that now is the time to draw up on some unshakeable ancestral strength and embody the warrior. I have to believe in the beauty of new things replacing all this burning. I have to believe in my own softness and that I won’t harden from all of this. one day maybe I will make a great album about all this 😭 I’m nowback in India letting more loved ones go , surrendering to it all. Nothing is mine and nothing ever was . In being closer to my own shadow and waves of suffering I also feel so grateful on this birthday for any spark of being alive and all the gifts that still remain for me… Grateful for 🦋 family 🦋 butterflies 🦋 the tiny relief after a big cry 🦋 knowing 🦋 not knowing 🦋 India 🦋 places near my family home in India m that still look the same and have the same shopkeepers and same brand of ice cream we’d get as kids 🦋 romance transforming and adjusting 🦋 portals of change 🦋 youuu
another birthday , another year around the sun 🐠I can’t really say it’s the happiest of birthdays, but here’s some bits of joy from this upside down year ☹️🩵 missing mom like crazy, cancer caregiving burnout, wildfires, losing my mom and grandma back to back in 2 months, displacement/ moving several times in 9 months & never really having a sense of home all year, attending a funeral for my closest loved one on my birthday, betrayal, unprecedented work & financial stress after I came back from bereavement … & so much more I can’t even share … god had a very strange sadness soup for me this year 😒🤣 I don’t think I can even yet understand the impact of each crisis fully , never mind what it means to experience it all at once in 9 months. How humbling though to be so very human. I always thought that if I lost almost everything I’d be perfectly fine because of “the power of meditation” and when you actually start to lose so much… well, somethings are bigger than meditation. I feel closer to understanding different shades of suffering and humility that I never could have in younger years. I’m so over the constant grief and chaos and I just feel that now is the time to draw up on some unshakeable ancestral strength and embody the warrior. I have to believe in the beauty of new things replacing all this burning. I have to believe in my own softness and that I won’t harden from all of this. one day maybe I will make a great album about all this 😭 I’m nowback in India letting more loved ones go , surrendering to it all. Nothing is mine and nothing ever was . In being closer to my own shadow and waves of suffering I also feel so grateful on this birthday for any spark of being alive and all the gifts that still remain for me… Grateful for 🦋 family 🦋 butterflies 🦋 the tiny relief after a big cry 🦋 knowing 🦋 not knowing 🦋 India 🦋 places near my family home in India m that still look the same and have the same shopkeepers and same brand of ice cream we’d get as kids 🦋 romance transforming and adjusting 🦋 portals of change 🦋 youuu
another birthday , another year around the sun 🐠I can’t really say it’s the happiest of birthdays, but here’s some bits of joy from this upside down year ☹️🩵 missing mom like crazy, cancer caregiving burnout, wildfires, losing my mom and grandma back to back in 2 months, displacement/ moving several times in 9 months & never really having a sense of home all year, attending a funeral for my closest loved one on my birthday, betrayal, unprecedented work & financial stress after I came back from bereavement … & so much more I can’t even share … god had a very strange sadness soup for me this year 😒🤣 I don’t think I can even yet understand the impact of each crisis fully , never mind what it means to experience it all at once in 9 months. How humbling though to be so very human. I always thought that if I lost almost everything I’d be perfectly fine because of “the power of meditation” and when you actually start to lose so much… well, somethings are bigger than meditation. I feel closer to understanding different shades of suffering and humility that I never could have in younger years. I’m so over the constant grief and chaos and I just feel that now is the time to draw up on some unshakeable ancestral strength and embody the warrior. I have to believe in the beauty of new things replacing all this burning. I have to believe in my own softness and that I won’t harden from all of this. one day maybe I will make a great album about all this 😭 I’m nowback in India letting more loved ones go , surrendering to it all. Nothing is mine and nothing ever was . In being closer to my own shadow and waves of suffering I also feel so grateful on this birthday for any spark of being alive and all the gifts that still remain for me… Grateful for 🦋 family 🦋 butterflies 🦋 the tiny relief after a big cry 🦋 knowing 🦋 not knowing 🦋 India 🦋 places near my family home in India m that still look the same and have the same shopkeepers and same brand of ice cream we’d get as kids 🦋 romance transforming and adjusting 🦋 portals of change 🦋 youuu
