Alison Sudol

Alison Sudol Instagram – I have an MR🧿 today to bookend the clinical trial I’ve done – the first time I did it I thought for sure I would have a panic attack with all the banging and clanging and having to stay perfectly still. Honestly I would have taken general anesthetic if it had been an option (nevermind that I gave birth with nothing more than gas air a comb for pain relief, head in a tube is its own thing) – and my dad and my step mom came with me. But I did it and lived to tell the tale. Today I dressed in every color I could find to combat the greyness of the day and have found it very satisfying that I seem to match my settings well. Fear of the unknown is often the most paralyzing part. I know what I’m getting into today. I know to leave my jewelry at home. No one is with me but I still feel held. I know it will be loud and I know it will take all the breathing tools I have but it will be a half an hour of my life. Being inside the medical system is a constant invitation to soften in the face of fear. I have so much compassion for anyone going through their own health journey. I highly recommend orange socks and something bright and vivid blue because matching and contrasting with hospital bathrooms is a small pleasure one shouldn’t deny oneself. The diazepam is kicking in. Wish me luck x | Posted on 25/Oct/2024 17:33:26