Addison Timlin

Addison Timlin Instagram – Dolores Wild,
I have often wondered about the lesson I am to learn from the universe sending me a child that looks so exactly like me. Sometimes it’s pretty on the nose, the gift of reparenting yourself. To dismiss your harsh thinkings because they have no place near your precious baby. The ruthless annihilating self-criticism silenced by looking into your big brown eyes, a mirror and a time machine. I’ve been in a 5 year arm wrestle with projection, seeing myself v. seeing you. The thing is- the ways you are like me have nothing to do with our carbon copy features. It’s the nerve endings longer than your whole little body. The way you track, and observe, the way you fix. You rub my back like you used to be my mother. I rub your back to remind you I’m yours. I spent so much time tangled up in the ways we are the same, I forgot to notice the way we are different. “She stands up for herself.” I choked on the words and the tears crashed over every groove of my face into my lap so I could hold them in my hands. A small ocean with the lesson written in the sand. “She stands up for herself.” Words I now chew and swallow. Your name came to me like a strike of lightening from the great beyond. It means pain. Life has so much of it, and you notice it all. Pain that is not yours to carry but to transcend. Your middle name is Wild- it means a place without the influence of human activity. It’s the perfect name for you. You like to tell me things through aliens. Last year it was E.T. This year it’s Baby Yoda. I hear you. You are an alien, as if I didn’t already know. But I will always treat you as such. I’m so grateful for your dance on earth with me. Be the force, little one.
For yourself before others. You are the force, sweetheart. Be with us, not for us. Don’t get distracted, I’ll help. I know how to now. Happy birthday my sweet, sweet baby. Five years ago, you alchemized everything. We’re so lucky for it.
I love you so much it is chicken boonanas. | Posted on 13/Dec/2025 01:36:02