Aditi Shrestha Instagram – Someone recently shared a very important point of view that made me see myself in a completely different light- which is to talk to my younger self whenever i feel unworthy, insecure or have self doubts. This month brought all of it.
When I started my channel in 2016, I was a girl full of fire, dreams & almost a desperation to feel a sense of accomplishment. I did not come from generational wealth, I didn’t have any resources, contacts, investment money or someone to look up to who looked like me, talked like me, had a financial background like me.
I will always remember this one time where i tried giving my room a ‘pinteresty’ look for a video & and was met by so much trolling for it being “low standard, cluttered or not cool enough” made me feel so small & helpless in a million ways. I still remember saving around ₹1500 and ordering 4 sheets of white brick wall stickers from amazon. It was the best 1.5k i had ever spent.
Last year I won an award, hit 1 million subscribers, bought my dream house, built a safe space and yet i felt unworthy. Did i work for it or did i just get lucky? aah the self doubt rabbit hole.
So last night I tried talking to my younger self, the 2016 Aditi who made the most of every cloth fabric as her BG, who used a single eyeshadow palette to do her blush, contour, highlight & brows, who made shopping at sarojini nagar her whole identity because that is all she could afford, who somehow in her twisted brain thought that making videos will change her life. So I thanked her for doing exactly that- changing my life. Aditi, they were wrong, we made it, we have a roof over our heads now and mummy papa are proud, ravi is enjoying, everyone knows you, people respect your journey. You’re surely going to go through a hell lot of things to get here that no one will ever know about. But i need you to let go of all the ghosts that haunt you or they will haunt you forever. Please set yourself free.
So here’s me letting go of the self doubt, cherishing my life, celebrating myself, taking my power back, doing what i do best- creating content, a reel that captures the essence of my side of the story đŸ’• because 2016 Aditi is proud of 2023 Quirky đŸ¥¹ | Posted on 16/Jul/2023 11:11:52
