Lisa Ray Instagram – . I was a crooked girl in a crooked world with an appetite for the discolored corners of the soul, come into inheritance I could not recall pining for, at least not in this life time life line or crease. there’s more to it, of course, when you’re made of matter and the mantel of your collar can’t contain a murder of desires because they are swollen with other plans and stunting down your throat. . the world is prickly, no doubt, and I used to think it very important to know how to debone Dover sole, but then I came across off duty waiters, who looked like all the men I wished I’d known. . so I tried to straighten out by careening into the edges of things but the furies took it personally and withdrew support of my deficiencies and everyone knows there’s no eulogy for the living. . stunned. . I dropped the wineglass, drank deeply from the calyx of a meteor cramming my mouth with ragged stubs of grace stealthy, so stealthily ripped from inner thighs from motherless thieves and childless mothers. . now I have become patience. everyday I fail, I fall. I press my crooked spine into masonry and I don’t take it personally when the shop attendant leaves me to answer the phone. she knows I am no hero. and every breath is unique. I’ve tried left efforts like skid marks across my wrists to save myself from fear surrender surrendering soldering stung and spumed into a world where on some days I remember telling an inconsolable child on a bus. . wait until we stop. . just wait. . Lisaraniray