Na realize ko that unlike with our mom, you never got to see Noy in his casket… the truth is i shot for 2 products on Wednesday, June 23 and i still had some scenes & stills to do on June 24 because paalis talaga kami for the 🇺🇸 on the 29th kaya tinatapos yung commitments.
i had my team with me, Raswin, my cameraman from my Game Knb days & Ervin, my editor/shooter from KCAP. i felt our family needed footage if only for our archives, so i asked my Ate if it was okay for my team to shoot all throughout because they would have access that the rest of the media would not.
Here are moments you did not see because no cameras were allowed inside Heritage before our brother’s Cremation and during the Private Viewing.
Marami po talaga akong gustong ibahagi sa inyo tungkol sa journey namin bilang magkapatid dahil alam ko how profoundly the experience has changed me. BUT the TRUTH is- IG is the venue where our “feud” started so in my heart i know it’s also not where i should share kung paano nagsimula ang unang mga hakbang para lumambot na ang puso nya, at lahat ng paraan na ginawa ko para mapangiti lang sya.
i am praying that Noy will give me, “bunso” as he refers to me to all those closest to him, a clear sign when he is ready for me to tell all of you our story- until then this bunso has learned her lessons and will stay silent. 💛
They SURPRISED me last night! Bumisita yung Tarlac resident! i told all of you i’ll only post them pag yung occasions when regular, normal people would post their kids… it’s mother’s day! and i thank God, He chose me to be their mama!
To all other moms- Happy Mother’s Day! And to all who joined my Mother’s Day tribute, sorry po, nagbabasa pa po sila & nag co-contact ng winners (14 on IG and 28 on FB)… so i’ll do a LIVE announcement of winners para SAFE, around 9:30 to 10 PM? Sabay na natin sa IG & FB LIVE. See you later. Pampanga, Philippines
Namili na si kuya josh, gusto na nya talagang tumira sa Alto (our family compound) in what he calls “lola’s house”, in Tarlac… malapit na ang birthday ng panganay ko (June 4), through my cousin, ate @celdasan we reached out to Gov Susan Yap. Nag prepare kami ng 800 grocery bags (thank you for helping me with my order Puregold and UniPak) that kuya josh will turn over to Gov Susan to share w/ families she feels will benefit most from his birthday outreach.
The 3 of us said our goodbyes yesterday afternoon… Pabalik na kami ni Bimb to our serviced residence while the condo we’ll be leasing is being readied.
We are not a perfect family, nagka mahabang tampuhan yung 2 boys BUT nakuha talaga sa dasal, pasensya, at pagmamahal- finally kahapon naramdaman kong nabalik na yung dating higpit ng yakapan at kulitan/lambingan nung dalawa.
i can share that story because it’s about my sons & me… my family is not just limited to my 2 boys, alam nyo how important my sisters & brother are to me, BUT they value their privacy and i totally respect that i can share my life but not our lives.
In time i hope i can tell you more because you deserve to know why i have so much more to learn & do to be worthy not only of being the daughter of my parents BUT to earn the privilege of being “bunso”, (tawag nya sa kin fondly or pag umiiling na lang) of the most humble, trustworthy, capable, dignified, and morally upright man i am so blessed to have as my brother.
Uunahan ko na- bago lagyan ng kulay pulitika at mag wild na naman ang trolls- i am writing this because of LOVE. Kailan ba naging masama mahalin ang mga anak at kapatid mo? Sa dami ng toxic na negativity ngayon hindi masama na mag share ako na bilang pamilya, BUO, may respeto, at nagmamahalan kami.
i have said repeatedly- i am not interested in politics now. BUT it is my right to protect our family’s name & honor.
Sabi nga ni Avril Lavigne from her song WARRIOR: i pick my battles because i know i’m gonna win the war. 💛 Pampanga, Philippines
Mom i am sure won’t mind that we are posting this at 2 AM (the hour she died), on the day of her 12th death anniversary, because on August 2, it will be the 40th day since Noy’s death.
Maraming nilalaman ang puso ko na gusto kong ibahagi sa inyong lahat… sure ako marami ang nagtatataka bakit wala kayong nakitang post, napanuod na interview, o nakitang moment na ako ang nagsalita on behalf of our family. But, now is still not the right time for me… naghihintay pa ko ng “go signal” from him- i know my brother will find a way to let “bunso” know when it’s time for all of you to hear the story from me of our journey- simply because all of you are a very special part of our journey, one i believe is a continuing one.
Sa inyo pong lahat, maraming salamat dahil pinaramdam nyo sa aming apat, kay Ate, Pinky, Viel, at sa ‘kin na hindi kami nag-iisa sa aming paniniwala that we were truly blessed to have Noy as our brother- na habang buhay naming IPAGMAMALAKI, PASASALAMATAN, HAHANAP HANAPIN, at MAMAHALIN.
Though still so painful, we know how blessed we were to have been born as the children of Ninoy and Cory, and the sisters of Noynoy Aquino. 🇵🇭💛
June 4, 1995, i was so NOT READY to be a mama… in many ways kuya josh helped me grow up. He was just 3 years old when it became just the 2 of us… because never kong tinago sa inyo that he is a special child, that he’s in the autism spectrum, oftentimes na bully sya lalo na pag may pulitikang involved, BUT di hamak mas marami ang nagtanggol at nakaramdam ng pureness ng puso nya at ng kanyang genuine na generosity at ang hindi nya pagpili sa kakaibiganin at bibigyan ng respeto – for kuya kung mabait ka at nagpakita ng kabutihan higit dun ang lambing at pagmamahal na isusukli nya.
I have often said life isn’t perfect BUT it does have many wonderful moments. Hindi possible for kuya josh, bimb, and me to share our blessings had you not given me the trust and support you have. Nakabalik ako sa trabaho, and i’d like to consider that my true career started because you accepted me with all my flaws & strengths 4 months after i gave birth to my panganay. Lahat ng meron kaming mag nanay, nanggaling sa trabaho ko na sinuportahan ninyo. Habang kakayanin, patuloy namin ibabalik sa inyo yung blessings that you gave the 3 Aquinos.
Happy birthday, Kuya Josh, we love you. Special thanks to @niceprintphoto for this video and @charissetinionp. @phildada for being our point person in Tarlac. @darylyap805 & his @puregold Pampanga team. Jasper Tan & #Unipak for the special “kris” price. My inaanak @mabellada for the coordination, and cuz @boss1020 & @jcbuendia_ for going all the way. Gov Susan Yap and sa mga Tarlaqueños na mahal na mahal ni kuya josh, yes, as he said he’s living there forever.
Buti pa ang Tarlac at si Kuya- may FOREVER! 🥰💛💛💛 #lovelovelove
Done rehearsing.
Maraming Salamat to my LOVES @shopee_ph, @shopeepay_ph, @gmanetwork, my loyal TEAM @alvingagui, @rbchanco, @jonathanbvelasco, @boopyap, @attygideon, @michaelleyva_ (PLUS our new members 💛) and of course, yung mahal namin ni kuya josh and bimb- ang nag-iisang Kuya Wil ng Bayan 🇵🇭, WILLIE REVILLAME! #ikawnanga #lovelovelove
See you tomorrow 10 AM to 12 NOON LIVE (on GMA 7, FB, YT, and the Shopee App)
🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡 Clark, Pampanga, Philippines
Thank you Jessica. Happy 1st Anniversary w/ us Nurse Eloi. Prioritizing my health.
i promised a surprise for all kids to be able give something special to their moms, mommies, mamas, mothers, nanays, mudrabels etc… #family #lovelovelove
P.S. thank you sa pinaka gwapong iPhone videographer! 😍 (cut off for entries will be at 12 noon on May 9.)
@attygideon & i have both gotten our first doses of our vaccine. My doctors chose AstraZeneca as my safest option. But we are still masked and we’re all taking the necessary precautions (new cases reported today are still 5,177)… thank you for the visit & the food vice gov @markleviste, although i believe you should get your vaccine soonest because you’re not just protecting yourself, you must get your vaccine for the safety of your constituents, friends, family, and loved ones. Agree? Bonifacio Global City “Fort BGC” – Taguig City
Jessica, not Patricia came back to repeat my ECLIA test… i didn’t post anything kasi yung 1st blood panel ko wasn’t good (as i said marami kayong problema so my health issues shouldn’t be your concern) and i said i’d give you an update kung may antibodies na ko… so i kept quiet & waited because w/ the vaccine i chose mas matagal (and i’m assuming it’s also because of all my underlying health issues) so it took me close to 4 weeks to develop Covid-19 antibodies BUT yes, now i have them. 😊
My sons both had the sweetest messages greeting me Happy Father’s Day. Honestly dati it was a source of pride that i managed to do it on my own… but now that i’m older, i realize how much they’ve missed out on- sabi nga diba it takes 2 to tango… yes i have been the nurturer & provider and let’s be REAL, hindi naman talaga nag effort yung mga tatay. But it’s lately that i’ve gotten a clearer male perspective from a new friend who has a very strong Christian faith- mahirap daw pantayan yung na provide ko for the 2, and minsan para wag ka na lang mapahiya, iiwas ka na lang… i never saw it that way before. And masyado na rin nasanay si kuya & bimb with our situation.
Yun ang kapalit ng living your life publicly… masyadong marami nang nasabi on both sides (this is about bimb’s dad) that he has seen (dahil nga may YouTube) and as he said hindi na nya hinahanap.
i have 2 commitments with brands i really wanted to work with so i’ll finish those next week… then i’m taking a short sabbatical because may paghahandaan and i won’t be able to give that my 100% kung hindi ako healthy. (Part 2 sa next post)
Part 1 of 2 Because… ang pagiging sad dinadaanan lang…
Announcement of our IG Mother’s Day Winners… i’ve tried my very best to stay as honest as possible, while editing w/ ate @milesocampo i saw how skinny i really am (siempre kitang kita beside my 2 sons who are “giants”), BUT the truth is i weigh 5 pounds less now than my lowest weight since we traveled to Singapore in 2018.
Natupad ko po yung Mother’s Day promise BUT now i need to fulfill my most important role- to be MAMA to kuya josh (my very happy Tarlac resident) and my 14 year old bunso, Bimb.
That means prioritizing my health & coming back online pag mas okay na ko. Nakahinga na ko because may vaccine na pwede na for 12-15 year old kids (pasok na si Bimb) and my doctors are studying kung pwede for me the same vaccine.
Please know i’ll be praying for your good health & safety as much as i’ll be praying for own my family… i’ll miss you pero babalik when stronger, happier, and much healthier. Until then, #lovelovelove
like roses that take time to bloom, my health also needs TIME… ayaw kong mapahiya sa inyo… there were too many stops & starts; maybe God was really preparing me for this… so until September weekly updates lang tayo.
my family (meaning my siblings) and i know now how to love & support each other in the way that each one needs… our mom would remark how could she have given birth to 5 kids w/ such different personalities? it was this year that we realized “kanya kanya talaga” and that part of loving each other is respecting individual choices yet being there when you’re needed & wanted but knowing our boundaries.
gusto kong mag kwento sa inyo ng pagtatapos ng isang mahabang bahagi ng buhay ko, pero nagbabago nga ang mga tao… that’s our story, not mine alone. so the parts i can share come from only what i personally said & did.
hinabol ko to arrive bago mag midnight 1 night in May.
EFFORT kasi 4 hours each way para lang makita ko sya for a total of 15 minutes (lock in sila for work but nag PCR ako to be sure)… sa entrance lang nagkita, hindi sa loob. i simply wanted to personally greet him happy birthday, give my gift and my letter. Sinuklian ko lang because nag effort din sya nung birthday ko to personally give his gift that was maeningful.
Pero nung May, that was our THE END. Siguro ang pinaka safe na pwede kong i- quote from my birthday letter was i said: i wish him REAL happiness because “we both deserve our versions of ME AFTER YOU”…
after 7 years, we did become the best of friends & i know even that part is now over.
Nagsalita na ‘ko because i still have 4 years, for bimb to experience “normal”… all he’s seen & known are dysfunctional relationships & i don’t want him to become an adult without me trying to move forward and God willing, giving my sons a chance to have the stepfather they deserve. Because i know, i’m not enough.
He doesn’t have to be rich or famous, better nga kung hindi sya public figure… basta tama ang values, madasalin, may integridad, matalino, at masipag, answered prayer na sya. i’ve achieved all my dreams, it’s now my turn to focus on what really matters- trying for my sons get the father figure they never had. #mytruth
Because… it’s up to you to make yourself #happy. Wag mong iasa sa iba or ma di-disappoint ka lang.
#lovelovelove 🌈
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These roses came from Bimb… we had 1 of our super rare “tampuhans” this afternoon… @59.flowercafe was closing already but he & nurse eloi made kulit Sheryl the owner so he could give me this bouquet of my favorite shade of pink roses… maybe for most whether mag asawa, mag boyfriend/girlfriend, magkaibigan, magkatrabaho, magkamag-anak, lesson siguro yung ginawa ni Bimb.
Cute kasi he told me he spent his own money BUT he said ayaw nyang makatulog ako without him saying sorry for hurting my feelings and that he loves me so much and he knows how blessed he is to have me as his mama.
Every night si kuya josh yung bago mag sleep text nya also says “i love you so much mama.”
What i’m trying to say is express your love & appreciation habang may chance… it doesn’t have to be kasing bongga nung roses ni bimb. Effort is always appreciated and expressions of love really matter so much especially from people you value. #loved #grateful
His card said “i don’t need a special occasion to thank you.”
i think that’s a reminder for all of us, to ALWAYS be GRATEFUL for the people who love us unconditionally and accept us for all we are, and all we’re not…
we all deserve to love & be loved- i believe we all need that reminder everyday. 🥰
Paano ba magsisimula? THANK YOU to my friend, a real friend Willie Revillame because from even before the 1st lockdown, bago pa naging bahagi ng mga buhay namin ang SHOPEE he tried his best to convince @gmanetwork to give me a chance to cohost with him…
Thank you @annettegozonvaldes and @joeyabacan for this opportunity… To my @shopee_ph family, maybe i can now share this part of my journey with my brother, my KUYA (sorry i will omit the exact date but this was a little over a month before his death) – napuntahan ko sya, naghintay ng more than 3 hours until he was peacefully resting para masilip sya sa ICU after a procedure. The whole team at Makati Med were just so caring & compassionate and they did EVERYTHING to protect his privacy. Sobrang na touch ako because i saw for all of them it was more than just professionalism, it was RESPECT.
Gumawa ako ng paraan because they had to know how much i appreciated them- so my Shopee fam kept my secret so that i could order special kris ShopeePay vouchers. Walang lumabas- nagawan ng paraan, nakapag THANK YOU ako sa mga tahimik na nag alaga sa Kuya ko mula December 2019 nung labas masok na sya sa ospital. As i told my Shopee fam, i am fully aware my contract expires on 10/10- but they have my LOVE & LOYALTY for LIFE!
Honestly, takot akong bumalik on TV (and all platforms FB, YT, IG, and Twitter) this Sunday because i know i’m underweight, although i’m fully vaccinated i do have autoimmune, i’m still grieving, and matagal na kong hindi lumalabas on network TV.
BUT sabi nyo hinahangaan nyo sa kin ang pagiging “strong” ko- NOW is my chance to prove it, and why should I be scared? Katabi ni KCA si WBR and this is for @shopee_ph. And for all of my followers na patiently naghintay for this moment to arrive. 🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡 #lovelovelove 🇵🇭
these flowers arrived late afternoon yesterday and i failed to thank nicole & james… they own @delidropph and the flowers arrived with their delivery (i’ve ordered several times from them for food gifts for some special people and they’ve done a consistently good job).
@59.flowercafe, sheryl- i think i should invest in your venture already… i order so often from you & i receive flowers from you almost on a daily basis… please wag mag tampo @petalier_ @theglasshouseflowers and @beyondflowersph? her shop is located nearest where we live now so it makes it convenient. (you can blame vice gov @markleviste because he introduced me to Sheryl, pero sabi nya her name was Cherry, kalurx- no intriga BUT red flag na for the girls out there, if a guy mixes up names of girls & he uses a phone na 5 models ago- medyo sure sign na he’s a player. Said this several times on kris tv, no offense meant but if the guy can afford pero hindi maganda ang phone means gusto ng “disposable” para pag may nahuli, madali to drop the phone, step on it, and no more evidence.)
yes may #hugot & may 💔❤️🩹 BUT thIs is my heartache, not yours- so please be HAPPY & if you are in a LOVING relationship, cherish & take care of it. Life has taught me, a heart will heal, it just takes TIME and the ability to let go of all you thought could have been. 😷😇🌈 Bonifacio Global City “Fort BGC” – Taguig City
#shopeebrandsfestival
Thank you @jhune.inc for the thoughtfulness. Wonderful way for me to start my weekend. 🌈
