Our Lady J Instagram – Tomorrow, I’ll attend my 5th Emmy Awards show to honor work that I’ve written and produced. Every year, I starve and exhaust my large trans body in order to shrink to the small-minded standards of the fashion houses and luxury brands that profit from these events. But this year, I didn’t change a thing. I ate the same shit I always eat, and I sat on my fat ass typing away at scripts. In the time I usually spend on my exterior, I instead spent writing a Broadway musical, my first feature film, and two new television shows. Because writing is my job, not partnering with luxury companies who make the most vulnerable members of my community feel like shit for not having enough, doing enough, or being enough. Last night, I danced naked in front of a mirror. I told my body she was beautiful and I thanked her for putting up with my shenanigans. I told my titties they were worth every penny, and I told my dick that I loved her. Instead of the nervousness I usually feel, today, I feel great. I feel strong. I feel grateful that I get to show up to a mainstream awards show as the full-bodied transsexual f*ggot self that I am. Praise the goddess for progress, sobriety, and the support of my incredible trans family. And thank you to the Television Academy for welcoming me with open arms!