Madisson Hausburg Instagram – As today marks Elliot’s three month birthday, I want to share a life update with everyone. After getting the green light from the doctor this week, Ish and I have decided to try conceiving again. Am I ready? No, I am utterly terrified. After Elliot’s death, I don’t think I will ever be truly emotionally ready to be pregnant again. But I have this deep need to be that I can’t explain. It is extremely difficult navigating motherhood without your baby. Kissing Elliot’s cold, hard urn every night is a stark contrast to kissing the soft, warm cheeks of my baby boy. There’s a hole in my heart that will never be healed, but I hold hope that motherhood won’t always look like this for me 🧸💕