Madisson Hausburg Instagram – Happy two month birthday, Elliot Angel Soto 🕊 Two months ago, at the very end of my healthy and uneventful pregnancy, I noticed my baby stopped moving. Ish took me to the hospital and there was no heartbeat. I’ve never heard anything more deafening than the lack of a heartbeat on an ultrasound at 9 months pregnant. My whole world collapsed in that moment. I was immediately induced for labor. I spent two days in labor with my baby’s lifeless body inside me. I heard babies crying and families cheering next door, all while I was experiencing so much pain physically and emotionally. I gave birth to baby Eli at 2:09am on Sunday, December 12th. It was immediately evident to the doctors how Elliot had died. His cord was tied in a true knot and was wrapped around his neck twice. These were the worst moments of my life… But what followed was simply magical. The nurse handed me the most beautiful boy in the world. He was absolutely perfect. I can’t even begin to describe the amount of pure love and pride I felt with my baby. Ish and I created such an incredible little human, and I finally got to meet him. I wouldn’t trade those moments for the world!! I would do absolutely anything to have you in my arms again, Tiny 🤍 It’s extremely bittersweet revisiting those days at the hospital. I haven’t even begun to unpack the trauma and the weight that they carry. The past two months feel like a blur. The grief is all-consuming. I simply don’t know how to move forward without my baby, yet somehow the time still passes and I’m still here…just surviving. I could not do it without my incredible husband, my sisters, my parents, my friends, and especially all the fellow loss moms I have met along the way. I am so so thankful to have this platform to share Elliot with ALL of you. The outpouring of love has been such a light for me in these darkest of days. So, THANK YOU 🙏 I love you, I love you, I love you, baby Angel 👼🏻