Leigh Holland-Keen Instagram – A gentle reminder to never judge a book by it’s cover
You could look at this photo and think wow she’s doing really well, out walking, back doing rehab/exercise. I’ve had alot of messages from people saying – “you’re strong this will be easy” . “Look what you’ve done in life this is nothing ”
I can tell you right now..
THIS IS NOT EASY
The past week I’ve struggled. I’ve had an internal battle to get out of bed, to shower, to get changed, to think “positive”
For someone that is so active and lives a rather chaotic lifestyle, having everything stripped away and being in a small apartment totally alone… is tough.
I’m normally a busy single mum, juggling all sorts. I’ve normally always got a list of stuff that needs to be done, washing, housework, cooking, training.. but now I have nothing. While most parents would be like “praise the lorddddd, I get a break” , I’ve not felt that way, I enjoy being productive, I enjoy being active, I honestly love being a mum. I don’t enjoy sitting around watching t.v, I don’t like being stationary.
So what’s changed over the past 2 days ?
I woke up and said to myself, no one is going to change this for me, no one is going to come save me and encourage me to get out of bed, to shower me, to dress me. I had two options, I ignore my insight to see my mental health is declining and end up in a really bad place OR I get up, I create a routine, I tell myself ” It is hard RIGHT NOW but it’s not always going to be this way” . I am no pushover and that’s came from overcoming constant challenges, I have firm boundaries and that’s came from constant heartbreak. I have been through way to much in life to allow this to bring me down. This Wednesday I find out if I need chemotherapy, and whatever the outcome, I will keep fighting.
Why have I posted this ?
Because I want to be real, I want people to see that everyone struggles at times and it doesn’t mean we are weak, in fact – and I say this all the time now – true strength is being real and showing your highest highs but also your lowest lows. I won’t be another “highlight reel” instagram account.
Cont. Below | Posted on 04/Sep/2022 17:38:45
