Serah D’Laine Instagram – Happy V-Day
I used to have a fear of intimacy.
I was afraid that if I showed up as “all of me”, if I let myself be fully seen – I wouldn’t be accepted.
I was told, be all the amazing woman you can be – but not too much or you won’t fit in.
I was told, don’t be too smart, boys don’t like that.
I was told everything wasn’t good enough. Dealing with being rejected on a daily basis takes a toll.
I put heart walls up just to protect yourself – more leather than lace most days.
When my heart energy was closed off, I attracted romantic partners that just validated me not being seen.
I mean, how could I be intimate with someone if I didn’t allow them to see all of me. I held back the parts me that I thought would be judged or cause jealousy.
I would only allow occasional moments of openness, when it felt safe again, when I thought I wouldn’t get hurt again. Only to experience another relationship that “proved” I was better off with my heart wall high.
Holding my heart closed, then open, then closed again to the energy of love was whip-lash to my soul it was making my bank account look like a rollercoaster.
I never thought about intimacy being connected to abundance when I first started my online business, I didn’t think it would show up there too…..
*continued in comments ⤵️ | Posted on 15/Feb/2022 04:36:36
