A year ago today my mom passed away. Today marks the first day of the new year for me. 2022 was the hardest year of my life.. so far The grief has been so intense at times it literally has taken my breath away We don’t really talk about death that much, probably because it’s sad and depressing and scary The last year I struggled with grief induced panic attacks, ptsd symptoms, depression, heart palpitations, all the anxiety, allot of disassociation and feeling like I’ve been floating through life I did all the things …met with my doctor regularly, tried different medications until I finally found one that worked for me I immersed myself in therapy…many many different kinds of therapy I meditated , I ran a marathon, I cold plunged, I joined a grief group, i cried allll the tears , I kept going to therapy, I asked for help when I needed it , I journaled , I sauna’d , and somehow a year passed BUT There was also so much good in 2022 , so much love and support So much laugher, so much connection So much time to be present and here which is such a gift. I’m so fucking grateful to the people who have held me up this year 🤍 I miss my mom so so much and I would give anything to be able to hold her hand again and hear her nagging me. But I also know without experiencing this newfound pain and feeing of loss I never would have found this newfound capacity for love. I mostly used this platform for ( yes distraction ) but also finding accounts that talk about and deal with similar experiences Here are few that I really connected with In case you are going through a similar time in your life @gretchnevans @marklemonofficial @hospicenursejulie @hernameisgrief @untanglegrief Whatever 2023 brings The good the bad And the ugly It’s amazing what we are capable of and how strong the human heart and spirit can be 🫶🏻 Sending love 🤍
A year ago today my mom passed away. Today marks the first day of the new year for me. 2022 was the hardest year of my life.. so far The grief has been so intense at times it literally has taken my breath away We don’t really talk about death that much, probably because it’s sad and depressing and scary The last year I struggled with grief induced panic attacks, ptsd symptoms, depression, heart palpitations, all the anxiety, allot of disassociation and feeling like I’ve been floating through life I did all the things …met with my doctor regularly, tried different medications until I finally found one that worked for me I immersed myself in therapy…many many different kinds of therapy I meditated , I ran a marathon, I cold plunged, I joined a grief group, i cried allll the tears , I kept going to therapy, I asked for help when I needed it , I journaled , I sauna’d , and somehow a year passed BUT There was also so much good in 2022 , so much love and support So much laugher, so much connection So much time to be present and here which is such a gift. I’m so fucking grateful to the people who have held me up this year 🤍 I miss my mom so so much and I would give anything to be able to hold her hand again and hear her nagging me. But I also know without experiencing this newfound pain and feeing of loss I never would have found this newfound capacity for love. I mostly used this platform for ( yes distraction ) but also finding accounts that talk about and deal with similar experiences Here are few that I really connected with In case you are going through a similar time in your life @gretchnevans @marklemonofficial @hospicenursejulie @hernameisgrief @untanglegrief Whatever 2023 brings The good the bad And the ugly It’s amazing what we are capable of and how strong the human heart and spirit can be 🫶🏻 Sending love 🤍
A year ago today my mom passed away. Today marks the first day of the new year for me. 2022 was the hardest year of my life.. so far The grief has been so intense at times it literally has taken my breath away We don’t really talk about death that much, probably because it’s sad and depressing and scary The last year I struggled with grief induced panic attacks, ptsd symptoms, depression, heart palpitations, all the anxiety, allot of disassociation and feeling like I’ve been floating through life I did all the things …met with my doctor regularly, tried different medications until I finally found one that worked for me I immersed myself in therapy…many many different kinds of therapy I meditated , I ran a marathon, I cold plunged, I joined a grief group, i cried allll the tears , I kept going to therapy, I asked for help when I needed it , I journaled , I sauna’d , and somehow a year passed BUT There was also so much good in 2022 , so much love and support So much laugher, so much connection So much time to be present and here which is such a gift. I’m so fucking grateful to the people who have held me up this year 🤍 I miss my mom so so much and I would give anything to be able to hold her hand again and hear her nagging me. But I also know without experiencing this newfound pain and feeing of loss I never would have found this newfound capacity for love. I mostly used this platform for ( yes distraction ) but also finding accounts that talk about and deal with similar experiences Here are few that I really connected with In case you are going through a similar time in your life @gretchnevans @marklemonofficial @hospicenursejulie @hernameisgrief @untanglegrief Whatever 2023 brings The good the bad And the ugly It’s amazing what we are capable of and how strong the human heart and spirit can be 🫶🏻 Sending love 🤍
A year ago today my mom passed away. Today marks the first day of the new year for me. 2022 was the hardest year of my life.. so far The grief has been so intense at times it literally has taken my breath away We don’t really talk about death that much, probably because it’s sad and depressing and scary The last year I struggled with grief induced panic attacks, ptsd symptoms, depression, heart palpitations, all the anxiety, allot of disassociation and feeling like I’ve been floating through life I did all the things …met with my doctor regularly, tried different medications until I finally found one that worked for me I immersed myself in therapy…many many different kinds of therapy I meditated , I ran a marathon, I cold plunged, I joined a grief group, i cried allll the tears , I kept going to therapy, I asked for help when I needed it , I journaled , I sauna’d , and somehow a year passed BUT There was also so much good in 2022 , so much love and support So much laugher, so much connection So much time to be present and here which is such a gift. I’m so fucking grateful to the people who have held me up this year 🤍 I miss my mom so so much and I would give anything to be able to hold her hand again and hear her nagging me. But I also know without experiencing this newfound pain and feeing of loss I never would have found this newfound capacity for love. I mostly used this platform for ( yes distraction ) but also finding accounts that talk about and deal with similar experiences Here are few that I really connected with In case you are going through a similar time in your life @gretchnevans @marklemonofficial @hospicenursejulie @hernameisgrief @untanglegrief Whatever 2023 brings The good the bad And the ugly It’s amazing what we are capable of and how strong the human heart and spirit can be 🫶🏻 Sending love 🤍
A year ago today my mom passed away. Today marks the first day of the new year for me. 2022 was the hardest year of my life.. so far The grief has been so intense at times it literally has taken my breath away We don’t really talk about death that much, probably because it’s sad and depressing and scary The last year I struggled with grief induced panic attacks, ptsd symptoms, depression, heart palpitations, all the anxiety, allot of disassociation and feeling like I’ve been floating through life I did all the things …met with my doctor regularly, tried different medications until I finally found one that worked for me I immersed myself in therapy…many many different kinds of therapy I meditated , I ran a marathon, I cold plunged, I joined a grief group, i cried allll the tears , I kept going to therapy, I asked for help when I needed it , I journaled , I sauna’d , and somehow a year passed BUT There was also so much good in 2022 , so much love and support So much laugher, so much connection So much time to be present and here which is such a gift. I’m so fucking grateful to the people who have held me up this year 🤍 I miss my mom so so much and I would give anything to be able to hold her hand again and hear her nagging me. But I also know without experiencing this newfound pain and feeing of loss I never would have found this newfound capacity for love. I mostly used this platform for ( yes distraction ) but also finding accounts that talk about and deal with similar experiences Here are few that I really connected with In case you are going through a similar time in your life @gretchnevans @marklemonofficial @hospicenursejulie @hernameisgrief @untanglegrief Whatever 2023 brings The good the bad And the ugly It’s amazing what we are capable of and how strong the human heart and spirit can be 🫶🏻 Sending love 🤍
A year ago today my mom passed away. Today marks the first day of the new year for me. 2022 was the hardest year of my life.. so far The grief has been so intense at times it literally has taken my breath away We don’t really talk about death that much, probably because it’s sad and depressing and scary The last year I struggled with grief induced panic attacks, ptsd symptoms, depression, heart palpitations, all the anxiety, allot of disassociation and feeling like I’ve been floating through life I did all the things …met with my doctor regularly, tried different medications until I finally found one that worked for me I immersed myself in therapy…many many different kinds of therapy I meditated , I ran a marathon, I cold plunged, I joined a grief group, i cried allll the tears , I kept going to therapy, I asked for help when I needed it , I journaled , I sauna’d , and somehow a year passed BUT There was also so much good in 2022 , so much love and support So much laugher, so much connection So much time to be present and here which is such a gift. I’m so fucking grateful to the people who have held me up this year 🤍 I miss my mom so so much and I would give anything to be able to hold her hand again and hear her nagging me. But I also know without experiencing this newfound pain and feeing of loss I never would have found this newfound capacity for love. I mostly used this platform for ( yes distraction ) but also finding accounts that talk about and deal with similar experiences Here are few that I really connected with In case you are going through a similar time in your life @gretchnevans @marklemonofficial @hospicenursejulie @hernameisgrief @untanglegrief Whatever 2023 brings The good the bad And the ugly It’s amazing what we are capable of and how strong the human heart and spirit can be 🫶🏻 Sending love 🤍
Three 🤍 @theportraitsessions @kristineilana 🤍 @perspectivefeminine Makeup @artistrhi 🤍
Three 🤍 @theportraitsessions @kristineilana 🤍 @perspectivefeminine Makeup @artistrhi 🤍
42 🤍 Been a fuc%ing year But I am so grateful for the love and friendships and support 🤍 And @stefanievonpfetten for suddenly becoming a photographer 😘
Part 2 Photographer @pudgynugget Photo assist @ivanamitreska Makeup @tightlinedbeauty Hair @laurachristineclark DOP @theanastasiaspivak Shot at @windsorarms
Last year was for my mom who although wasn’t physically there.. I felt her the whole way saying “ why the fu?k are you doing this !!! “ 😂 This year was for my daughter…who over the course of her 7 years has had much of the same opinion “ mommy ughhhh why do you have to going running so much ?! “ This year I think she started to understand what running is for me and why it’s an important part of my life She was SO excited about the idea of waiting for me at the finish line, that despite a stomach bug and a bad knee I knew I had to at least give it a shot 😅 At the halfway point I gave in to the fact that I was not going to meet my original goal.. or my secondary goal..so I turned off my devices and notifications and stopped calculating my time and decided to lean in to alllll the sensations…mostly very uncomfortable ones! I ended up smiling through the last quarter knowing however long it took she would be waiting at the finish line and that’s all that mattered 🤍 Next year will be for me! I’ll get that PB 💪🏻 @torontomarathon
Last year was for my mom who although wasn’t physically there.. I felt her the whole way saying “ why the fu?k are you doing this !!! “ 😂 This year was for my daughter…who over the course of her 7 years has had much of the same opinion “ mommy ughhhh why do you have to going running so much ?! “ This year I think she started to understand what running is for me and why it’s an important part of my life She was SO excited about the idea of waiting for me at the finish line, that despite a stomach bug and a bad knee I knew I had to at least give it a shot 😅 At the halfway point I gave in to the fact that I was not going to meet my original goal.. or my secondary goal..so I turned off my devices and notifications and stopped calculating my time and decided to lean in to alllll the sensations…mostly very uncomfortable ones! I ended up smiling through the last quarter knowing however long it took she would be waiting at the finish line and that’s all that mattered 🤍 Next year will be for me! I’ll get that PB 💪🏻 @torontomarathon
Last year was for my mom who although wasn’t physically there.. I felt her the whole way saying “ why the fu?k are you doing this !!! “ 😂 This year was for my daughter…who over the course of her 7 years has had much of the same opinion “ mommy ughhhh why do you have to going running so much ?! “ This year I think she started to understand what running is for me and why it’s an important part of my life She was SO excited about the idea of waiting for me at the finish line, that despite a stomach bug and a bad knee I knew I had to at least give it a shot 😅 At the halfway point I gave in to the fact that I was not going to meet my original goal.. or my secondary goal..so I turned off my devices and notifications and stopped calculating my time and decided to lean in to alllll the sensations…mostly very uncomfortable ones! I ended up smiling through the last quarter knowing however long it took she would be waiting at the finish line and that’s all that mattered 🤍 Next year will be for me! I’ll get that PB 💪🏻 @torontomarathon
Last year was for my mom who although wasn’t physically there.. I felt her the whole way saying “ why the fu?k are you doing this !!! “ 😂 This year was for my daughter…who over the course of her 7 years has had much of the same opinion “ mommy ughhhh why do you have to going running so much ?! “ This year I think she started to understand what running is for me and why it’s an important part of my life She was SO excited about the idea of waiting for me at the finish line, that despite a stomach bug and a bad knee I knew I had to at least give it a shot 😅 At the halfway point I gave in to the fact that I was not going to meet my original goal.. or my secondary goal..so I turned off my devices and notifications and stopped calculating my time and decided to lean in to alllll the sensations…mostly very uncomfortable ones! I ended up smiling through the last quarter knowing however long it took she would be waiting at the finish line and that’s all that mattered 🤍 Next year will be for me! I’ll get that PB 💪🏻 @torontomarathon
You know all the things I could say @thefansmith 🫶🏻 I love you and am so grateful to have you as my sister 🤍 #jeansister #tatoosister #journalsister #witchsister 🤣🤍
You know all the things I could say @thefansmith 🫶🏻 I love you and am so grateful to have you as my sister 🤍 #jeansister #tatoosister #journalsister #witchsister 🤣🤍
You know all the things I could say @thefansmith 🫶🏻 I love you and am so grateful to have you as my sister 🤍 #jeansister #tatoosister #journalsister #witchsister 🤣🤍
You know all the things I could say @thefansmith 🫶🏻 I love you and am so grateful to have you as my sister 🤍 #jeansister #tatoosister #journalsister #witchsister 🤣🤍
You know all the things I could say @thefansmith 🫶🏻 I love you and am so grateful to have you as my sister 🤍 #jeansister #tatoosister #journalsister #witchsister 🤣🤍
