Lauren Lee Smith Instagram – A year ago today my mom passed away.
Today marks the first day of the new year for me.
2022 was the hardest year of my life.. so far
The grief has been so intense at times it literally has taken my breath away
We don’t really talk about death that much, probably because it’s sad and depressing and scary
The last year I struggled with grief induced panic attacks, ptsd symptoms, depression, heart palpitations, all the anxiety, allot of disassociation and feeling like I’ve been floating through life
I did all the things …met with my doctor regularly, tried different medications until I finally found one that worked for me
I immersed myself in therapy…many many different kinds of therapy
I meditated , I ran a marathon, I cold plunged, I joined a grief group, i cried allll the tears , I kept going to therapy, I asked for help when I needed it , I journaled , I sauna’d , and somehow a year passed
BUT There was also so much good in 2022 , so much love and support
So much laugher, so much connection
So much time to be present and here which is such a gift.
I’m so fucking grateful to the people who have held me up this year 🤍
I miss my mom so so much and I would give anything to be able to hold her hand again and hear her nagging me.
But I also know without experiencing this newfound pain and feeing of loss I never would have found this newfound capacity for love.
I mostly used this platform for ( yes distraction ) but also finding accounts that talk about and deal with similar experiences
Here are few that I really connected with
In case you are going through a similar time in your life
@gretchnevans
@marklemonofficial
@hospicenursejulie
@hernameisgrief
@untanglegrief
Whatever 2023 brings
The good the bad And the ugly
It’s amazing what we are capable of and how strong the human heart and spirit can be 🫶🏻
Sending love 🤍 | Posted on 22/Jan/2023 17:45:00
