Maria Bello Instagram – I’m pretty small but still, the amount of time I’ve spent thinking about my weight since I was a teenager, even if I was 5 pounds bigger than usual was HEAVY. If I were TEN pounds over my weight that I felt good at, I would think about my “fat” stomach as soon as I woke up in the morning. So when someone came out with a weight loss drug when I was 20 pounds over the weight I like myself at, I jumped at the chance to use it. I tried last year but the nausea made me stop after 2 days. And then I was nominated for an award this year and needed to fit in my dress. And quick. I didn’t care about the nausea. I had been in Paris for a year eating croissants everyday and the sample sizes that the designers loaned me just wouldn’t fit. So I went on a new medicine for 6 weeks and lost 14 pounds. Cool. But then I realized the question everyone seems to be asking themselves, can I ever quit? Or do I have to inject myself every week for the rest of my life and get SKINNIER AND SKINNIER AND SKINNIER til I look like the starving “bobble-heads” we are seeing all around us. People with big heads and tiny bottoms. It’s not that cute. I also miss enjoying food. My wife to be is a chef @dominiquecrenn and I feel terrible that with every incredible meal she makes, I started saying, I’m not hungry. I’m over it right now even though I may go up and down 20 pounds. So I will stop. But I’ll still probably go back on to fit in my wedding dress in May. Before the PAUSE I would probably be tempted to become a bobble head like everyone else. Now I know I would like to have some time to taste again, to desire food, to laugh and eat and gain 20 pounds on crossants. At least until May when I walk down the aisle and would rather focus on love, not my stomach fat, I want to feel good no matter what I choose. Don’t you?