Mica Burton Instagram – Mind if I get vulnerable for a sec? It’s a bit heavy to start but I promise the end is full of joy.
I’m not ashamed of it; many times I wanted to leave this earth. One time I actually tried. I wanted to just make the pain stop. I’ve been on a mental health journey for most of my life— if you’ve followed me for a while you’ve known this. There have been a lot of hard times the world has seen, and many many many many more I have kept to myself. Recently, with a very hard year both mentally and physically, I once again found myself in a familiar headspace, one I hoped I’d never return to.
But clearly, I’m still here. Not only am I still here, but I have taken the tools of over a decade of therapy and self work to realize: surviving isn’t just strength. It’s defiance. And I’m nothing if not a petty bitch fueled by spite. I am fighting so hard to make sure that I won’t let anything— or especially ANYONE— belittle me. No one will any longer dull my shine. My love will only be celebrated, no longer tolerated. No more begging for scraps. Not in friendships, not in work, and especially not in a romantic relationship. I’ve finally accepted that jumping off very tall somethings won’t make them come running. Out of pure spite, I’ve grown so much more self worth this year. Out of pure defiance, the loud vitriolic voices of toxic masses stopped overpowering my own voice. Just to make sure they know they haven’t won, I’m still breathing. It’s the greatest revenge for people who wish you harm: living another day.
So. Why am I over sharing rn? My new tattoo obviously. “Long story short, I survived”. Now before you roll your eyes at the Taylor Swift lyric, let me explain. Taylor is the inspiration and the blueprint for defiantly continuing on. She has been slut shamed, humiliated, bullied, ridiculed, stolen from, and underestimated. But she came back. She came back, reclaimed her power, and this was her fucking year. Everyone who wished Taylor would fail is screaming and crying and throwing up right now because she is SHINING. And so am I.
So here I am. Folklore font, Evermore lyrics. My life going forward is officially (Mica’s Version). 🌿✨ (scroll to end for “;” meaning) | Posted on 29/Dec/2023 06:59:34
